Why? why? What had happened to me? My mood swings 180 degree in 24 hours. Is it I am tired? i was damn excited this early morning, even though I gotta to got up very very early, for e-charity run. the distance of the run is 5km but I think I only manage to run for 3km. The last 2 km I just walk and run a bit. Ahahahaha..but I still manage to get No 20 of the run. Suddenly felt that I have real great strength and stamina. Nah...just around 70 people joined for the female category. Felt a little bit surprise also, I can never run for long distance since primary. Anyway, I am still glad with what I had achieved this morning, minus the paiseh-ness when hanni screamed my name. That was so embrassing boy! But what I appreciate the most is when mostly of the foe fella scream when I went out for the medal. Ahahaha..at least some people did know me and I am not invisible among those foe....hehe....Happy stuff is not always continuous, bright day will never continues. But why is it bothering so much? Why must I care so much? This is not jealousy, not envy also. Just that I felt that I just a supplement. Iron, Magnesium, Vitamin B or Iodine??? That is worst than that if to compare. It does not really matter me much except the supplement part.
But at the same time I am still awaiting for a little magic that might work in a small percentage. With the slightest motion he sent, I am taking it as a motivation to move more, to step deeper and to wish for more. Might this will end nicely whether in the conclusion that I wanted or in a condition that I already expected, but in a different acceptable way.
Sunday, March 26, 2006
complicated
Friday, March 24, 2006
I should not had done this :p
Oh..i had done the darnest thing last midnight. Instead of burning midnight oil for Digital Integrated Circuit, I went for dimsum at 2.30am. Travelled all the way to Sri Petaling from Cyberjaya, which took more than 30minutes, though there was no traffic, that was still crazy. The problems are not about how far it is, how late is it, all I concerned was I will be having test on the next day. Ok ok....if anyone to be blame, that is me, I and myself. It was my own determination that gone wild some of the time *lols* Anyway, it was still a great meal. 3 of us (bzai, jerry n I) was having great supper+ breakfast. I talked a lot to compare to last few days. We ended up to reach Cyberia at 5.30am. It was a long long time ago since the last time we had dimsum for supper, not to include the one we had after Zouk session *giggs* Well, I am still looking forward for the "char siew pao", which i missed last night and of course the famous "lo mai kai pao". Yummy...Thinking of it will make me salivate.
All the best for all PureE for the paper tonight. May esther pass it with flying colours. Esther, Go! Go! Go! %%- %%- %%-
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Biggest assets
Overview:
Your strength and confidence are two of your biggest assets, especially when it comes to how you deal with the challenges about to come your way. You're more than equal to the task, however.
Yes, Esther, Go! Go! Go!
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
She found the Space
For the first time of being grown-up, she felt so terribly guilty. For not being a useful person. For something she can do it better. For being an unsecure. For being a dissapoint-er. She was blowed with lots of mean question marks. No matter how hard they were, she was still standing, protecting herself, believing she can get through it. She knew she had no wrong, but she also knew she is the cause of it. She was still tough for everything except....He is the only place she will become an infant. Where the vulnerability to break is no distance. The comforts he gives, the securities he offers, all the time. She becomes so tiny, depending emotionally on him, so much. No... infinity is the exact value. In front of him, she struggle to be a grown-up, yet he is the only place that she broke into tears, sheding off her egoness. Because of his words, his comforts and also his sacrifies. Only in him, she found herself, to be the she that can be found in no one. Whenever and wherever, he gives her the long lost space. She.....is now.... understood, useless has in own definitions, regarding to different individual, time and also space of course.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
reference is still a reference
I should not be putting too much weigh on it. As expected, nothing really special happenned. Maybe I am just too conscious about this day. I should had known so for the past so many years, but I am still placing a glimpse of hope on it. My rationality told me "That is just a reference" but emotionally, I am still a miracle believer. Childish? Yes, parts of me are still a kid. But at least I am not unhappy. Dad and Mum is always supporting me. I still have few peoples that make laugh everydays. When there is hope, there is will and when hopes transform into reality, it is the meaning of life, I guess. Am I wrong? Surprises come when you least expect it. But tell me how many people in reality live without expectation? Thanks god, I am still breathing, at least. Of course I felt a little bit dissapointed because today is no much different than others day. Wake up==> lunch ==> library==> lectures==> dinner ==> online chating ==> supper ==> blogging. Just another Tuesday unless the online chatting session is a special one. Nah, zero excitement. To be positive, I should view the reference on the others perspective!
Continue Reading...Sunday, March 12, 2006
Gelatimo Challege!!!
Date: 4th March 2006
Location: Berjaya Times Square, Kuala Lumpur
Time: After lunch, around 2pm
Mission: Ice cream Challenge
Here comes the 4 ice-cream's freaks. Loving ice-cream is eating ice-cream. Planned to have 500ml initially but ended up ordered 750ml ones. Take notes, the ice-cream does not come in cones, cups, or bowls. It was in 750ml full box!!!!!
Very obvious, it comes ugly in 3 flavours :- zamboich(correct me!), chocolate mashimaro and hazelnuts. The look was ugly but the taste is not ugly at all. Let's see the participant "GELATIMO MOMENT". Yeah, this is Italian Gelatimo Ice-cream at Times Square, not a luxury shop, just a small outlet on the mall walkway. Some sort of Baskin Robbins. Here it goes:
Participant No.1 : Miss Esther said "Heavenly"
Participant No 2 : Miss Katherine said "There is no NO for icre-cream!!!"
Participant No.3 : Mr Lykwan said "Ice-cream party??? Count me in!"
Participant No.4 : Mr Jerry said "750ml is never enough for us, come on..lets have another 500ml"
Yeah, I am so much in love with ice-creams. This is also not my first time to have this heavy dose of ice-cream. It was about half year ago, my hometown friend, ah shan and me had our first 500ml together. *scream* We both love ice-cream. And there was once that I ordered Baskin Robbins (quarter pinch i guess), and i finished it alone(I was in Genting that time)! Baskin Robbins' Grean Tea ice cream *thumb up*. And not to forget few years back, we (sheryl, slow and I) finished a box of Wall's Selection ice-cream in Cyberia(whahahaaaaaaahhahaa). Ice-cream party???? Yes, I will go for it! Continue Reading...
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Sleepless nights
It had been 4 sleepless nights. Oh....someone please save me. For these 4 nights, I had been flipping around until dawn. I cut- out my afternoon nap, but it made no different. My mind is just so active, as Hanni said. Yes, i admit that I was thinking someone but that is only on the first night. What happened to me? I do not love to sleep anymore? oh..no way! Is it because of the hot weather? I do not know. Even a full day shopping trip failed to give me a good sleep, I woke up at 2am and i flip flip flip for so many hundred times. One day class + salsa make no different to my body. Sleep, everyone need it, but I need it the most! :-( :-(
Continue Reading...Sunday, March 05, 2006
count 2...
My mind is getting complicated. Why is it 24? Not 2 or 3? Scratch my head, I am still looking for the reason. There is no solution, but again why is it 24? Is that my eyesight is limiting me from something that I am yet figured out. Or am I afraid counting it again.
P/s: This entry is as complicated as a combination of maths, equations, probabilities, theories and a lot of unknown question marks. Ya, it is Sunday night again :P . Maybe my mind just get tired, when I was not having a good sleep continuously for two nights. May the downpour late the afternoon brings back my good sleep ."Rain rain, come again and flushed the humid air away"
Saturday, March 04, 2006
I am loving it~
Thrice a day is just too much. Even though it is not so good emotionally, I know I am starting to love it. One day, I will know whether I am correct. At least I will know there are some force, trying to hint me, telling me, you are not stepping on the same spot.
Continue Reading...Friday, March 03, 2006
Gila....
forever_1st_day: seriously i wan tell u..
lnyie84: show u how to lam XXX
forever_1st_day: since long time ago liao
forever_1st_day: but i dare not..
lnyie84: u seroisly love me???
forever_1st_day: please..
forever_1st_day: be patient and
lnyie84: okok
forever_1st_day: listen to what will me utter
lnyie84: u tell
lnyie84: i go bath
forever_1st_day: softly to ur ears..
lnyie84:
forever_1st_day: really..
lnyie84: okok
forever_1st_day: i want to say this everytime i see u
forever_1st_day: everytime i just keep in in my heart
lnyie84: ok la i go bath now
forever_1st_day: and i feel bad everytime i close my eyes at night
forever_1st_day: that..
forever_1st_day: really..
forever_1st_day: i
forever_1st_day: i am not lesbian
forever_1st_day: so..ur love thing ar..
forever_1st_day: plz ar..
lnyie84:
forever_1st_day: dun show me here
lnyie84:
forever_1st_day:
lnyie84:
lnyie84:
lnyie84:
lnyie84:
lnyie84: why..
lnyie84: why must u tell me know
lnyie84: do u not know that i love you so
lnyie84: don go break my heart just like that
lnyie84: i would not love in this world without you
lnyie84: dont you know
forever_1st_day: baby..listen to me...
lnyie84: there will be another sleepless night
forever_1st_day: love is everywhere u can get in this world
forever_1st_day: please go out..
forever_1st_day: and seek yours..
lnyie84: no
forever_1st_day: do not stay just for me...
lnyie84: i refuse to !
lnyie84: i had found my love in you
forever_1st_day: i doesnot wortd it
lnyie84: you do, trust me you do
forever_1st_day: go explore and find the greatest love
lnyie84: do u not wanna try out with me?
forever_1st_day: no..that is not love.....
lnyie84: i do not need a great love to stand in my life
lnyie84: all i want is you
forever_1st_day: please...
lnyie84: a return of love is just what i need
forever_1st_day: leave me with a little smile
lnyie84: so please
lnyie84: stay iwht me...
forever_1st_day: and go mmet the new one
forever_1st_day: together he will bring you happiness
forever_1st_day: warmth
lnyie84: how dare you say that
forever_1st_day: that i will never can give to you
lnyie84: even i save all my love for oyu?
lnyie84: there is no one else out there who acts like you
lnyie84: smile and charm like you..
lnyie84: no.. there will never be
lnyie84: stay with me plese
forever_1st_day: you will never know
forever_1st_day: at least u go and try
forever_1st_day: i will stay here and
forever_1st_day: be beside of your
forever_1st_day: come back if you meet the dead end
lnyie84: stay here n eat ur roti canai la
forever_1st_day: and you will start all over again from me
lnyie84: i knew it when i 1st saw you
lnyie84: i end all the path i needed to you
lnyie84: because the reason is i found you
forever_1st_day: if you leave, you will know that i am no longer the perfect one for u
forever_1st_day: go and find yours
forever_1st_day: and you will be blessed by my prayer
lnyie84: love is blind, really it was
lnyie84: ive tried and i know
lnyie84: he is not worth for me
forever_1st_day: and only god will know that you love me deep in your heart
lnyie84: all i want is you
lnyie84: why 2 person deeply in love cant be together?
lnyie84: tell me why...
lnyie84: i go bath lor
forever_1st_day: u say i win 1st...
Thursday, March 02, 2006
the third coincidently or the 1st sign of......
one...two and three encounters. Got to say moving in a good beat. Two important number in the month of March. Hm..the first one is quite a surprise.....the second one is on 14th, guess that i will be forgeting this date in few more days. How surprising it would be, I wonder.... Somebody just remind me when it is 15 of march k...
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
apa?!!! naik 30 sen????
The Star, 28 February 2006
KUALA LUMPUR: The price of petrol and diesel is up by 30 sen a litre effective today, the highest increase in the past two years.
However, the Prime Minister's Department, in a statement, said that this would be the only increase for the year. (hah?!!30sen is more than enough la)
Public transport and commercial vehicle operators only face a 15 sen rise for diesel. (bus ticket price also increase lo *sob sob*)
The Prime Minister's Department also said the savings from the price increase would be used “to pay for development projects and improving the public transport system for the benefit of all people.” (My mum used to pump rm42 for full tank, kancil only, now rm50 is not so sufficient lo....for every tank my mum pump, she invests rm8 for development project lo..look like everyone is undeniable very generous toward the contribution of development. How about my dad car....oh no....full tank will cost him near to hundred ringgit )
Monday, February 27, 2006
MLM, thanks..no thanks
MLM, Multi Layer Marketing. This so-called investment is getting terribly hit now. Let it be LampBerger, GoldQuest or whatever Quest, it is all about BIG MONEY, FAST MONEY and again BIG MONEY and FAST MONEY again. How they persuade people to join them...quote from Lowyat.net
"Like a group of ppl which is already LB member,they organize a small party n call their frens to join them and makan.3 days after tat party nite,each LB member ask the fren tat the bring on tat nite says tat go KLCC "jalan jalan" but end up in their office in Wisma HLA.
The group party most who attend is LB members,just make it easy tat is a upline organize a party....ask his downlines to bring his/her frens to join in....later can take step by step to convert them to join.They won't intro LB on the party nite,only few days later they will ask u to go KLCC for yumcha or jalan jalan but is end up in their LB HQ".
and the freaking fact is that
1)Since they really want to help ppl to become richer, then why dun help them to pay all and earn the money for them??
2)They seems like to 'blow water' saying how much they earn la, wat car they buy la n even worst is they will look down on those who question/look down their products. And the BMW that they are driving and the bungalow they are staying are fully on loan. Remember that HSBC, HongLeong giving out *what ever the name* full loan? They(upline) is having a large amount of liability.
3) If this investment is giving you so much in return in let's say 3 months, why not Bank Negara use this concept to develop the country. Make sense?
4) Why those upline meet you up to brainwash you in mamak stall, not in Starbucks, Dome, Chili's. They are making big money right?
5) Upline will say this investment is not pyramid scheme, it is a multilayer marketing. What a good name. But boys, can you name the difference?
6) they almost say nothing about the product... they just bombard your mind with "fast money"...
7) If this is a great way to make money, why people tends to share it with us. It is the same fact why Mr Lim Goh Tong is becoming richer and richer and does him share the fortune with us. No right?
8)The product that you invest is normally something which is damn damn cheap in some other country , of course which you cannot get locally. Who in the world really need a lampe for rm2k?
The following statement is not from me. Courtesy for Lowyat.net forum for that. But this is what I am very very agree
"MLM is for stupid and useless people who are good from nothing other then being a burden to the family and friends cos they do not see the pride in the slow climb up the career ladder is sometimes more important then the quick and easy money cheated from a close one or a stranger where you so called 'true friendship' is just basically driven by GREED and LUST FOR MORE MONEY. Where at the end your own prespective is so perverted that you will conform to the lies that are thought of by the biggest liars to con you to make more money for yourselves and they just get all peons to do the hard work and they just reap the harvest. SO think again before you fall for such misdirective half truths and remember that LIFE IS NEVER EVER EASY and by taking the easy way out of life you will never be able to cherish the simple pleasures of waking up to a glorious sunshine or even to breathe a simple breath fo fresh air without scheming to 'encourage' someone of the new found joy of being rich "
And of course there are people who success by doing MLM. There are, but just some! Maybe 1-2 out of 10. Only those with super tough determination will success here. And that are just half of it, because the other half of half determination people will not be influenced by this scheme. Just like me! *lolz* I just do not have so much in financially to start the investment. FAST MONEY...good enough for investment but...rm2k gone without news!!! Continue Reading...
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
99
This is childish...but surprisingly..it is 99 % accurate, at least for this moment. And coincidently, this is the 99th entry I had in www.mystage4u.blogspot.com
Your Five Variable Love Profile |
 Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship. |
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Monkeys monkeys sekalian...
Kindly introducing me and the monkeys in my house...
Me.....the only ordinary one.....
Here Monkey No.1
Monkey No.2
Monkey No.3
Monkey No.4
and.....Jing jing jing jinggggggg.........................
And this how these monkey behave while in they cage in Mentakab, Pahang
Scary????
P/s: Ym me if you want to know in details of those monkeys.... :-p
Monday, February 20, 2006
cha cha boom....opps
Cha Cha Booommmm...
no no...not the correct song...
the correct song is...
i dont really know..ahaha...
Started with Salsa class last week. Just a casual dancing class lah, not dancinf with flirty skirt andd 3inches shoe. Just casual, as what i mention just now. Just t-shirt and jeans aith a pair of sport shoes lah. Attended the second lesson just now, quite enjoying except that i felt that I am quite kayu. I had zero experience in dancing, not to count the clubing shake bon bon. I enjoy watching people dancing and this is my very first time to dance in front of people, and it is Salsa, one of the Latin American Dance.
Quite embrassing though, twist here n there then shake here and there. And the hardest part, a partner is required. OMG..I just cant dance naturally with somebody opposite sex. Not to say eyes contact with partner is very very important. Eyes contact==> I am an idiot on it. To stare someone eyes, oh no no, i just cant do it unless he is my.....Anyway, Salsa class is very very intersting. You will see somebody twisting in all the wrong direction, and how people dance without eye-contact(just like me :-p) and of course to laugh at people stop halfway dancing because they forget their steps......ahahahahaa....that is so so so funny. I am sometimes on of them. And definetly there are some who are very good in their steps and motion. All these required talent and pratice practice practice and also practice....Looking forward for the next class *giggs*
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Lou Sang HCNY 2006
It is the first week of trimester 3. Below are come photos of lou sang. Happy Chinese New Year!!
Date: 7 Feb 2006
Venue: San You, Seri Kembangan
Comment: The package is RM 398, not so expansive but does not worth it, the food portion is too small and some of the food is not so nice.
BEFORE
AFTER...(courtesy for jason for the messy table)
sea of "shark fin"
half way sea-ing
someboday said this is SHE(wanna vomit)..plz do not agree!
6 guys, 5 gals and a "lou sang"
Happy Semester Reopen and Happy Chinese New Year
p/s:This is the second time I"lou sang" with frens in KL. Having an enjoyable time there. Well, this entry came a bit late...anyways late is better than none :p
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Valantine Special
It is 14 February 2006, Status: Dateless :p
Program Flow:
9.55am:
Woke up, and had 2 slices of Gardenia wholemeal bread with a piece of ba gua(dried meat). Indeed a very dried meat because b zai went to burn it in 2minutes time with our microwave. First time to had this a bit hangus and hard ba gua
10.40am:
Printed some notes, pity on me because I do not have no a single page of notes for the first week of the trimester.
11.00am:
Felt bored, my roomate is still here even today is V-day. So, we started our cho tai di routine. Opened the cover of the HerWorld magazine that I bought from cyberia new shop last night. Lucky b zai is still around. Game ended because I kept on losing. The reason: only bzai n hanni knew it
12.30pm:
Hanni came to join us for the cards game. Aikss....our plan for V-day one day trip went "boil soup" because we lacked of members.
1.05pm:
I boiled another soup. This is a real one, cabbage soup. Love cabbage that dad gave to me one week ago. Well, it is one week old, some of the leaves turn yellow d. Games continued.
2.45pm:
Game finally ended, drank cabbage soup for lunch because we want to leave some space of our stomach for the dinner.
4.20pm:
Took a shower, prepare a bit for 5pm class. Looked like pure-E student doesnt take it big for V-day. I can see that most of us were attending the late afternoon class.
7.00pm:
Mr Mamum was still giving lecture. His wrist watch is already showing 7.05pm. All the students were packing their notes. Some even complained that it is already dinner time. But Mr Mamum said today we should follow his dinner time, that is 10.30pm the earliest. Hahhhhh...no no no, we want to leave the class as soon as possible. So, he went for another slide(which is about 5 slides altogether) before letting us go. So, the activity start now....
7.25pm:
Get the little kancil from hb4. Hanni, Floreena n kerchean is in my team, another team is also still in hostel so we decided to meet at the MMU bus stop. Lucky it is a kancil because I am also driving kancil in my hometown. This is also the first time i drive in KL, not to count last time went to alamanda for jessy's bday cake. he brake was so so so...sensitive. Maybe the owner afraid we wil need it during emergency. So, 5minutes of waiting, off we went to sk.
8.15pm:
Reached sk hoi tong, quite crowded. Aiseh how come steamboat buffet is also that crowded. Ithought couples only celebrate V-day in dim light restaurant, with candle on the table, red wine,piano or violin backgrond, steak and flowers...how romantic it is....But the fact is we need to wait for empty table. Lucky it is not so long for wait, about 10minutes plus, and we get a table for 8. Yes, 8 girls and a single party. Had prawn, chicken satay, lemon chicken, fish, crab,ice cream....as usual except for the dessert which is jelly(maybe this is v-day special). Soo yeu and I are loving it so much. 2 hours of non stop eating, it is time to say goodbye to the other team because we need to rush to Mid Valley for movie. This time my team consist of hanni and flo.
10.15pm:
We had only 45mins to travel to mid valley from sk. And this is my first tiem to drive there. I do not really recognise the route,neither do hanni and flo. Just go for it. We have extra petrol but we have no much time to waste, else, our reservation tickets will be gone.
11.15pm:
God bless us because we reach on time. At least we were not seat in kl. Driving late at night also an advantage because you can drive slowy to see the signboard. Managed to get each of us a ticket for the movie "Firewall". Lepak around outside the cinema, looking here and there, figured one thing in common:-couple, couple and more couples......and also levi's valentine T. The design is not bad, but what i do not like is they are sharing the same shirt. Well, if i have a bf, I will design our own t-shirt*still dreaming* What is the feeling when you and your love one wearing a couple T and both of you saw another couple coming with the same shirt.....that is...yerrrr
11.45pm:
Set our butt at the 3rd rom from behind of cinema 13. Beside me was a pair of not so young loving couple. I saw them hugging each other so tightly before entering the cinema. Yuckss......not because of I am envy of them to be a couple but i think they should behave themself while appearing in public. "Firewall", a good movie, as what sn recommended this noon. I am falling in much with harrison ford, though he can be my father. He is just so so so profesional and loving in that movie. He is the MAN.....
1.45pm:
Movie ended, uite tired but i still need to drive *sob sob*. Lost our way and we ended visiting Bangsar's housing area, lucky we managed to get back on track in a short time. Reach home before 3am, wanted to shower to remove away the bbq flavour from my hairs(due to the steamboat n bbq buffet), but I am really too tired. Guess this is the end of 2006 Valentine days. Dateless, but date-ful with frens. Happy Valentine's Day!!!
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
aikss....
It is school reopen again. Backto school, not really fun but glad to meet up frens also lah. Went for "lou sang " last night. CNY goin to end very soon *sob sob* another year to wait lor. On the way to plan for "single party"during valentine, anyone interested, raise your hand k...hehe
Continue Reading...Friday, January 13, 2006
Hallo, ich bin Esther
German paper is less than 7 hours away. German, a very interesting class. My class is a very small one, just 9 of us. The lecturer get to know every each of us in person. Initially, I was quite in nervous during the class because I had to voice out more than 3 times in every lecture. That is quite "arrghhh, why me again..oh no!" But very soon, right before Miss Katrin left us for German, i used to be natural during the class. On the spot questioning is no longer a huge problem for me. We used to laugh alot during the class. I will never forget how Miss Katrin demonstrate the word "geboren" aka born. She is kind enough to answer all our lamest question about Germany. Through her, we got to have a closer look of Germany, which sounded like a very peaceful city where peoples are inactive at night. That means no yamcha, no movie and the most interesting part, they cook always and their main transportation is Fahrrad aka bicycle! Unfortunely Miss Katrin left us at the middle of the course. Then very soon, she is replaced by a Malay lecturer, Frau Zarina who are quite plump physically. At first I really do not really like the way she distribute the lecture. It is because since in the first class I found out that she use more Bahasa Melayu to conduct the lecture. I was like "hey, this is university madam. use english ok", but of course i did not voice it out. Well, she turned out to be a quite funny and friendly lecturer. And I cannot deny that she had a better pronountation, maybe because she is not a native German speaker. From her, we got to know how to twist our tongue for a better pronountation. She is quite efficient too, she called every each of us just to tell us where and when is our replacement class. She even sms-ed us for the coursemaark. The sms sounded as follows:
"Esther, ur carry mark is 35.5.
Pls study verbs
conjugation. Look at the
pvs papers that we'd
done. G luck! Frau zarina "
This is just so sweet (is this a correct word I doubt). Shall I call her during the holiday so that she will give me an extra mark *lolz lolz*
Anyway, thanks a lot to Miss Katrin and Frau Zarina for enlighten me during this 2 months German course. Danke
Monday, January 09, 2006
glad..but not happy :p
The Digital System Final Paper is over. Though it is over, I am still not feeling happy about it. Why? I just never expected this kind of questions will come out. It is really tough, I was stucked on every question that i did. Felt cheated as well. The question in the paper is just totally different with tutorial given. Is this so-called, self studying method, which means we need do a lot of out of lecture extra work. Now I know why mrs shahiman said i left this one for you to as a homework. The time is just not allowing as this semester is very pack itself. We do not actually finish our lecture on time so the lecturer end up skiping this and that. Well, i understand that I cant blame anyone. Maybe this is close relation with my learning attitude. Some says A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E = 100%. Maybe it is the time to have a major change, like what he had said before. Anyway, that is the end of the hectic period. Another two paper to come, but not so tough(i hope).
Had my 1st log in to art.com as well. Drawn my first ever art pieces online . Hanni say not bad, but i just know that i have no special gift in drawing. Anyway, enjoy doin it, the software is not bad. Much better than paint brush. Not so restricted by the mouse movement. The software just know which spot that you want to fill with color. The main advantage is user does not need to download the software. And registeration is not required. *thumb up* and the images you had drawn were saved on its database itself. After you completed the image, you just need to save it and send it to your email, and the link to that graphic will be there. Other than that, image can be shared with others email user as well. Overall, an ideal tool for creative drawing online! Oh ya, the tools also show you how the original user draw the graphic in the form of flash.
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Sleepless night
It is 5.20am in the morning. I am not purposely to wake up to study. I just cant sleep properly. It had been three hours lying on the bed, thinking of a lot of things. Thinking bout the past, my family and also future. It happen again to me to have a sleepless night. I really hate it when i cant sleep soundly at night, moreover this is the few days before final exam. Maybe I should concentrate on the studies now, but i am just not psycologically fit for that. Sleep, everyone need it, but i need it the most.
Lesson of the day: Do not take coffee after lunch. Not even a NESLO, else you will end up like me. Physically awake but mentally empty.
Friday, January 06, 2006
important, at least for me!
This is very very important, at least for me. Digital system coursework mark is out today. Downloaded the file and saved it to my desktop. Ms power point is running so slow on my pc. It took me more than 3 mins to log in to that file. So, immediately i scrolled to my id 10211xxxxx, saw my assignment marks. 19/20, good good...too good. Never think of to get this minus one to full mark. We do not even completed the whole project. We did nothing on the main code, but yet the lecturer mark us as 19. That is too hard to believe. The first thing i wanted to do is to inform my groupmate, Asa.Anyway, instead of that, I scrolled down and see hows the other groups performing. Not bad, the average is around 16-18. Then only i realized i didnt take notice on the midterm mark whichwas just a cell next to assignment mark. So, i scrolled up again to check my mark. Oh..that was unbelievable. I scrolled to top again. Not wrong. Back to my id again. Yes, very confirm. So here come the main point....I get 40/40 for mid term. I am so so glad with it. Never in my dream I dreamt of getting full marks in MMU. I do not think I am doing well on the paper either. But that was it, unless it was a typo mistake of the lec. Hope he will not double check it. That makes me actually carrying 39/40 for the final paper..Felt very relieved. Sms-ed bzai on that stuff oso.. Back then, she got 19/20 for her midterm ....Maybe I am sharing some of her luck.But i win her...*lolz*She said that is a good influence of her...Perhaps...Hope this is a good beginning for this course....Damn happy yo! Mayb this is nothing much..but i am just glad....Yes, esther, Go!go!go!
Continue Reading...Wednesday, January 04, 2006
announcement to myself
With the end of Digital System assignment, now officially i announce the start of study week. Another 4 days to go before the final paper for Digital System. The assignment period is a crazy one, really fed up when the is uncorrectable syntax error and even worse when i cant get the desired output. Luckily managed to finish it(at least part of it that we targeted to complete) in time. Thanks to Asa for the hardwork and for adopting me as your groupmate. Situation went worst when we are going to have our main touggh paper on the first day of exam week itself. That is just too bad. Why cant the lecturer book another not so early day for us?? Aikss....this means another 4 sleepless day to go. I better organize my time properly. I just have no much time to lepak around. Anyhow, I might be very free from 9 jan onwards, but i needed lots of cash....for shopping of course. Though that I day had went for a shopping trip with shyan, but that is just not enough. I need to get another pair of jeans and skirt to complete my collection for CNY. Yes, CNY is around the corner....new clothes, angpow, fren gathering, gamble, cookies, candies is coming very soon. Yes, another 4 days to go and I will be like a bird. esther ....Go!go!go! You can make it! You can do it because sugar had done it. sugar no longer a sugar except in deep in sugar heart, Sugar will be a memory. And with the date of 1jan2006, sugar no longer stays the the same circle again. She will be free, taking the first step and another step, seeking for the right one. But she just decided to be freed too late of the day, because she felt that is a promise and she do not want to break it. But now, nothing matters too much to her already. Yet, " Ich liebe dich, als eine Freundin"
Continue Reading...Monday, January 02, 2006
Dedicated post
This post is dedicated to one of my fren(you know who are you) out there. Though you start this brand new year unhappily, I hope that you will be able to get back on track in the shortest of time. Live is short, you just have no space for unhappy moment. I know this is a tough period, take it easy k. Cheer up o! Say this " you shen me da bu liao!" and tomorrow you will wake up in a better way. Go go go you deserve to live in a happy life.
This is a little song for you (i am not goin to sing for you anyway)
My Favourite Things
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favourite things
Cream coloured ponnies and crisp apple streudles
Doorbells and slaybells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favourite things
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winter that melts into spring
These are a few of my favourite things
When the dog bites, when the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favourite things
And then I don't feel so bad
Well, what is your favourite things...
-soya milk? pai gu wang? 2 burger in one shot? nano ipod(though u dont have it yet? what ever it is...get well soon!)
Saturday, December 31, 2005
For The Year 2005
The best part of 2005?
The family love and the friendship I had gained of course.
Q:The worst part of 2005?
Lost my hp(though it is 2100) while working in Genting. Well, I replaced it with a color screen.
Q: Did you make any new friends in 2005? Who?
Yes I guess but just cant figure out who he/ she is. People comes and goes in my life.
Hmm....Some when working in Genting, some from Malacca and maybe some from cyber
Q: Any new crushes in 2005? Who?
Yes yes yes. recently deeply in crush with Singapore jue dui superstar contestant.
Hong Jun Yang- He can sing well but it is a bit unlucky as he is not the superstar. Anyway he managed to get signed with Universal.
real crushes in a year? Of course there are a few. *gigs* one of the latest one is the cute guy next to fri german class. I guess he is foreigner, mayb korean(as what hanni said). Nah, he dont even know i exist and i dont even know his name. Tat's crush. Not more to reveal *blush*
Q: Do they know?
Already mentioned as above. As for him, I do hope he will notice this. Keep this in mind, Scorpio is always mysterious.
Q:Who will you never forget?
All my dear friends.
Q: Who did you wish you did not meet?:
None. I believe that there are reasons why I was arranged me to meet
Q: Did you have a boy/girlfriend in 2005?:
No
Q:Did you fall in love in 2005?:
Nein, aber das ist nicht lieben
Q: Did you catch someone in a lie in 2005?:
Yes, quite a number
Q:Did you call them out?
No, I only observed it
Q: Did you get caught in a lie? What was it?:
I think no, I am a not bad lier. I lied naturally some of the time.
Q: Funniest moment of 2005?:
Too much of funny moment. Perhaps the Guys' performance during Uno games in Genting
can be ranked as the top 5. The Sunway trip when we were shouting when we so a small
dark spot on his neck for which we thought is shit. *lolz* and maybe also of abby and
jerry performance on chicken wing war last night?
Q: Most embarrassing moment of 2005?
Dont really have. I hope wearing arena tee with sport shorts for having lunch in
Wong Kok Char Chan Teng is not too embarrassing...
Q:The funniest thing you you saw on TV in 2005?:
Malaysian Idol special performance??????
KungFu mahjong
Q:The funniest thing you heard on the radio?
Nothing much. Less tune to radio though
Q: Did you take any vacations in 2005? Where?:
Genting, Malacca( consider as vacation, well I was having great time)
Q:Any new hobbies of 2005?:
Nothing much, start getting back to table tennis
Q: Did you get a new job in 2005?:
Part Time job as service crew in karaoke in genting
Q:Did you lose a job in 2005?:
Yes, as school is reopen, i need to resign
Q: Did you host a party in 2005?:
Yes, my 21 bday party. And also the 1st ever mid-autumn bbq
Q: Did you get in any car accidents in 2005?:
No, but nearly during CNY. *touch wood*
Q: Did you get a ticket in 2005?:
Bus ticket to KL from my mum
Q: Were you ever arrested in 2005?
No of course!
Q: Where did most of your money go?:
Food, clothes and a lot to tuition fees!
Q:What song will always remind you of 2005?:
Gurdian Angel- junyang
Bu de bu ai- wilbert n xie ze
Mimpi- Malaysian idol
Q: What do you wish you'd done more of?:
Study...Good time to spend with family and friends. And more more more sleeping
Q:What do you wish you'd done less of?:
Being weird, clothes washing
Q:Thing you were really good at in 2005?
Complaining on people, laugh at people and sleeping lo
Q:Thing you wish you were better at in 2005?:
Time management, studies, communicating and love love love
Q: In 2005, did you lie to miss a day of work / school?:
Yes, some of the time but i didnt lie. I will be frank if I am lazy to class
Q:Did you move in 2005?
Ya, moved my bathroom to clubhouse..*lolz*
moved my table from living room to my bed room as well
Q: Did you wish on a shooting star in 2005?
Not even in TV
Q: Has your wish come true?
Yes, I am still alive at least. And I passed all the papers throughout the year
Q: Did you have a sleep over in 2005?:
Dont understand...
Q: Did you make-out in public in 2005?
Pardon me, what is that?
Q:What's the ringer on your cellphone?:
Four leave clover OSt for my sms
Q: Did you drink too much in 2005?:
Not really. Drink on some of the ocassion only
Q: Your favorite commercial of 2005?:
Ikan di laut, asam di darat. di dalam periuk, di situ muafakat
The hari raya commercial on the bus driver n his childern*lols*
Q: Did you go to any concerts? Which ones?:
Yes, Went to Lee Hom concert. Cost me rm280 but it worth!
Q: Something you couldn't leave home without in 2005?:
Slipper or shoe
Q: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
Do not take things for granted. We only plan for it. Always plan your time wisely
So today is the last day for 2005. Tomorrow onwards, I am a 22 years old lady. Time is moving so fast. Just like last year, nothing much for the new year eve. Really sorry for dissapointing my fren for not join yours activity. I just cannot stay long in crowd. I still remembered of writing my resolution and hide it in my cupboard while I was in secondary . I am not going to do that this year. I am already 21. I just want to be a better me, giving the maximum effort on everything I do. And wish that everyone around me to have a happy, worry-less year ahead. And of course the best of health for Dad and Mum. Flying color for shyan n tyng in stpm and spm. And also a higher pointer for myself. And everyday a happy day for everyone that i know.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Christmas dinner, No! it is pre-Christmas Lunch
Date: 23 December 2005 ( Friday)
Location: English Bistro & Pub, Cyberjaya
Time: 12 pm - 2 pm
Transport : PFL 2608
Participant: me, abby, liang yeow, jerry
Program of flow:
12.10pm : Departure from MMU Cyberjaya
12.15pm: Pick Jerry at Cyberia C2
12.18pm: Arrival at Century Square (Yellow Foodcourt to be exact)
12.20pm: Surprised by the ushers of Bistro, they was wearing the deer 'tanduk'
on their head. Look sexy but not pretty in their mini top and mini skirt.
12.21pm: Each of us get a goodies bag; a door gift from the manager of the Bistro
The red wine-like gift indeed impressing us as this is the first christmas gift
of the year 2005. *yeah yeah* We felt a bit like those VIP, because the manager was
there to serve us. *gigs* . The christmas music playing on the air is very heart
warming. Eyes were looking around to seek some familiarities, but i saw none
because that was my first time being there
The surrounding is very comfortable, with no more than 10 tables on the dining hall.
No like others restaurant which offered buffet. This one is a very pleasant one.
Unwrapped the door gift, a coupon inside, which is for our free wine or beer. Dig
deeper on the door gift, we found two keychain(one is tiger and another is heinneken),
a coin bag, a purple colour grape magnet and also a advertisement of a hair stylish
(ignore the ad).
12.25pm: Get every each of us a free flow of fruit punch. Pink color liquid with the tste of guava,
not a bad one. Still shy to move away from our table. Eyes were still looking around
to seek for permission. *gigs*(not really need the permission, we can just start to eat
whenever we like to, but we decided to be calm). Then here we go, after jerry
announcement to start the meal *lolz* I went straight away to the dessert part.
Saw a very lovely chocolate cakes decoreted with cofffee powder. I reserved part my
stomach for it. Yummy. Then I saw strawberry, yes ripe red strawberry and grapes
beautifully arranged on a silver tray. I took few of it and also a few slices of yellow
watermelon, on my mind to share it with the others participant. You may call me
weird for having fruit for appetizer, that is me! *lolz* The there I went for the main
course, the roasted Turkey.....*yeahyeah first time to have turkey for x'mas* . Took
some beef, and also prawn salad. Then some creamy danish and some tomatoes cream
as well. Get back to the table as the plate is almost full .
12.28pm: Eating in progress
12.50pm: 2nd round of food picking (jerry laughed at me because i took all my food wit a big
plate. He is the one who actually put all his salad on my plate *sob sob*)
1.15pm: refill drink, discover there was lobster soup but quite full by the time. So, we just took
one bowl for 4 people. yummmyyy....very very creamy with small chunks of lobster.
1.19pm: redeem our wine from the bar man. Red wine. Not nice, I just do not have the
knowlegde on wine. Saying cheers merry christmas, I just sip it like usual liquor.
Taste weird. Saw funny expression from jerry face too *lolz*. Took some photo
with b zai thru ly hp( some sort like village gal on tasted red wine on city)
1.45pm: took the last plate; which contains only strawberry and grapes. Another small plate
of turkey from ly for the last time. Still havent finish my wine yet. I got class at 2.30pm.
Too bad, how i wish to skip that class. Aber das ist Deutsch Klas, ich muss yeden tag
gehen. A bit worried that my face will blush after that drink then everyone might be
asking me am I drunk*lolz*
1.58pm : Request for bill. It cost everyeach of us RM 48. Reasonable. This is a western buffet
with nice environment, and come with red wine, and roasted turkey.
2.01pm: Leaving. B zai said we going for x'mas pre-supper tonight, rm 10 per head. Ja, wir
gehen zu Hause heute nacht. Wir wollen fische 'bakar' essen.
2.10pm: Rushing home to pack my bags and notes. Class at 2.30pm and I had prepare nothing
for it. Merry Cristmas everyone!!!
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Silent Night
Silent night, holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace
Silent night, holy night!
Shepherds quake at the sight
Glories stream from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia!
Christ, the Saviour is born
Christ, the Saviour is born
Silent night, holy night
Son of God, love's pure light
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With the dawn of redeeming grace
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth "
Dear Mr. Santa,
I had been behaving very good this year. I did nothing bad all the times. People say you exist if I believe in you. Now, Santa I really believe in you. All these years I had not written to you, because I do not believe in you and i do not have a chamber in my house. This year, I fully believe you travel all the world in Christmas from east to west. And I know you have other way to give away present to give present to good girl who do not have chamber. I know you will. I am a good girl and i always will remain so. Mr Santa, I believe, I do believe you will come to me.
*whispering* promise k, I will be a good girl. *wink*
Yours Esther.
Wishing everyone to have a warm silent night and merry merry Christmas!!!!
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Fate
Fate? What is fate? Somebody said fate cannot be changed. Some say fate is uncontrollable. And more people saying that today is the fate of previous. What is it really about? A verb, an adjective, or a noun? Acording to Oxford Student's Dictionary, the word fate can be define as "the power considered to control all events in a way that cannot be influenced". Do you agree with that? I believe every each of us have our own very unique opinion on what is fate. And it is also not surprising that most of us had never came across this question. Me, as an example had just come across this after i overheard some wise discussion on the radio. "ming yun shi she me ne?" or "what is fate?". The Dj was right. Her definition; which she read from a book is quite similar to mine, fate is "the result of the reflections of previous behavior which occurs today". It is said that what happens today is because of the past behaviour. The behaviour here can be simplify as the attitude or the choices that we had made before. To make it clear, I am here now because I had chosen of coming to MMU to pursue a degree three years ago. So, I am here is the reflection while three years back, when i am chosing to study in MMU is a behaviour. So, in general, I am the one who choose to have this fate. Though some of the time, the result is not always what we wanted previously. Afterall, life is no longer wonderful if everything is predictable So, the next time u say "ke neng zhe shi ming yun" or "maybe this is fate", perhaps you can think twice because i might always say "zhe shi wo shuo xuan zhe de" or "this is what i choose to". Doing so, I will not always blame on fate because fate is the reflection of what i had done in the past. Afterall, the fate i had today will be a history tomorrow. And nobody cares much on what had happened yesterday, what we are always looking at is the future. What will be happening in future, only god knows. We are just a small tiny creatures in this universal, we only have the right to plan on it without knowing what happens tommorow. Who knows maybe tomorrow will be raining eventhough it is predicted to be a sunny day, rite? instead of always blaming on the fate, why not we have a great day today and plan for a better tomorrow and most importantly forget about the unhappy past. Wake up tomorrow and thanks to your previous behaviour because you are still alive.
Continue Reading...Thursday, December 15, 2005
How true is it?
Came across an intersting article from The Star few weeks back. Something about extra luck for exam. Hmm...how true is it? Gotta give it a try to figure out.
1) Aromatherapy; try burning sandalwood incense of oil while studying(wondering what is the smell of sandal wood, smell of wood huh??). It is said that sandalwood helps calm any agitated feelings before sitting for exam (agitated? is it same meaning with stress or nervous?) Also, burn frankincense for poor memory or jasmine for exhaustion. (gotta figure out all these scents from memory land, but i guess jasmine scent would work.)
2) Fengshui; try to get something to attract positive energy. Fish represent success. Keeping them in front of your desk brings good luck. if you cant get a fish, simply cut out a picture of a fish from magazine or newspapers and stick it on the wall in front of you.(shall i replace my leehom poster with a fishy poster??? Will rubber fish works?)
3) Crystal; a few gemstone to be carry around for luck and success purposes. Aquamarine helps release anxienty, fear and restlessness. Citrine helps give mental and emotional clarity, problem saving and memory.(aquamarine? citrine? no idea how the colors look like, I only have pink, purple;maybe this is aquamarine and light green beads on my right wrist. )
4) Food; some people used to take chicken essence for the strengh of brain,(but not me, i felt pretty awful to swallow those dark liquid so called "gai jing"). Some opt for the wonders of sugar. Chocolate should be a popular stuff to load into mouth during study period while some sucks sweets as a form of therapy.
5) The most important which the best of best is to start doing revision not at the last minutes ;p
Monday, December 12, 2005
for the date of 29 october 2005
It is 1.13am, one hour after my birthday, on Shyan's yellow bed. Here I am, on Shyan's test pad writing for my 21st birthday. Forgotten since when I am so conscious with the date, time and atmosphere. Anyway, I am still much in the birthday mood. My legallity finally came. I am finally 21 years old after ten months of long neck waiting. Guess that this feeling evolves on everybody that was born later of the year. Let look it closer, I am exactly smaller than bzai 10 months and you know, that is longer than a normal pregnancy period. And because of that I am the youngest between bzai n sn and jessy is the eldest(= oldest). LOLzzzzzz.....
Well, I had so much people to thank. First of all, it is my dad and mum of course. A thank is not a suitable word for both of you. Even a milion of thanks is not enough to appreciate the tough and long effort both of you spend to raise me. Both of you gave me something that cannot be valued through money or gold or diamond. It is already 21 years I am protected by you, nurturing by you. Even some of the time, I showed that I am discontent of what I already had and I am always asking for more and more, deep inside my heard I am satisfy with everything that you try your best to give me. I want to apoligize for my bad -temper at sometimes, even though you showed that you never care for it. Both of you are the greatest people in the world that god had give me. Besides, hug and kisses for dad for cooking all the stuff for my little celebration. And it is no one other than mum who washed all the dishes that I myself will not wash for anyone *hugs*
Other than that, hugs for Shyan as well for baking such nice dessert for party before you left for genting. Though you are not besdie me right now, I will always wish that you will be blessed always. I will always remember what you had done and it is quite touching that you bought that shirt for me. that is a real surprise. Though not an expansive one, the heart is what that matters.
Also, to sn n bzai, you gals make it real 'real'. Thanks a lot. I really mean it. And to Kerbau jessy, thanks for coming from so far to share this moment. Not to forget ah too for fetching kerbau here. And Yip, to be the 1st supporter(maybe you are hungry...hehe) And ah Shan to rush here from her mum's dinner to her this little fren bday party. Also for eeting, loh, yenlu, leong, soh, kelvin and jeck for attending this low cost party. Oh..not to miss my 'askar' (tyng,baby & pot)for helping on the special task. Without you all, the party must be quite a mess. And lastly thanks for the regards thru SMSes : yeu, asa, slow, sheryl, henry, hanni(on the effort of getting to mentakab--> she requested me to mention this), roy, hung, yienchong, chunwei, meishuet, lee, lamswee, chew, jason, ly and wei and along for the phone call and testi...
P/s: this post arrives so late due to my careless-ness of forgetting to bring back this writting pad to cyber at the start of sem2. shudnt be any inconvenient for anyone rite?
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Have a good laugh
Disclaimer: This material is not suitable for children under 18 years old
A mother was very concerned that her middle-
aged
son has not shown the slightest indication of
getting married.
So one day she called him over to her house.
The son came home from work, grudgingly. Upon
arriving, he found that his mother had gathered a
few beautiful ladies at the house for him to choose
as his future bride.
The first one was a well-endowed telephonist-
cum-
receptionist. He immediately commented
that: "Aiyaa... mother, they always say....
PLEASE HOLD ON, HOLD ON....."
The second nominee was a leggy secretary. She
was also rejected.
Reason being: "Aiyaa... mother, this one aaa...,
secretary always fond of saying "PLEASE SLOW
DOWN, SLOW DOWN...."
By this time, the mother is nearing frustration. She
called a sweet but plain-looking teacher.
The son suddenly agreed!!
The mother was surprised and asked: "Why this
one? The earlier two were a lot more better
looking!" He replied: "Teachers aaa.... teachers
vely good, vely good, always say: PLEASE
REPEAT, DO IT AGAIN, I Want it done 10
times.... SOME MORE, SOME MORE..!"
Now come the small naughty hero. Her youngest
son (10 years old), was listening quietly all this
while at the other end of the room.
Suddenly, he shouted "Brother.... female mini bus
conductor more better laa.... they always
say..."NAIK CEPAT, NAIK CEPAT... MASUK,
MASUK.... MASUK LAGI, DALAM LAGI... DALAM
LAGILAAAAH, MASUK
BELAKANG....BELAKANG LAGI, BELAKANG
BANYAK KOSONG!..........."
The mother fainted....
post it to everyone so that they can laugh out
loud!!!!
from friendster as well
blog again
This is what i found while browsing thru friendster buletin....I am just too free during sunday night..hehe....seemed like i am only active during weekend. Not bad also, at least i can do a bit revision during weekend if i am not back to my hometown.
1.Last place u have been to:
malacca(a week ago), cyberia mini mart(buy bread)
2. you are:
esther lei
3. They say you are:
kerbau(i'm not le) , cool(i am not as well)
4. Yesterday:
wake up quite late,do some gym, go alamanda and cook dinner
5. Last person who texted you?
hanni (on digital systen stuff)
6. Last person you called?
dad (asking whether i goin back)
7. Last name in your received calls?
bzai
8. How old are you?
21
9. What music is playing?
only sound of fan and mayb bu de bu ai from afar(dunno whose house)
10. Last thing you drank?
plain water, alright...nutrigen susu flavor
11. Last thing you bought for yourself:
food consider as thing or not? canvas shoe from pyramid
12. You want to:
finish my assignment and go out for anything
13. You really like:
sleeping and eating good food
14. You have a crush on:
somebody who are tall, wif nice teeth, and nice attitude towards life
15. You really hate:
ppl betrying me. and ppl that doesnt content with what they already have(sometimes i jus hate myself....kekekeke)
16. Who is the last person you talked to online?
wck_84 (on assignment stuff)
HAVE YOU EVER:
1. got wasted?
dont understand...mayb i wasted lotsa of my time
2. ran away?
yeah...i ran from school while in secondary..i miss the time so much
4. had ur heart broken?
of course....
5. cried when someone died?
not yet
6. broken a bone?
no
7. cried in school?
yeah.......in primary....i was so terrific wif alll the ppl in the 1st week of school
WHO'S:
1. your good luck charm?
not sure....
2. person u hate most?
this wil hurt ppl..cant tell
3. makes u laugh d most?
all my close fren..while they making those stupid thing
4. makes u smile?
all the one's in the memory
5. has a crush on u?
no one
DO YOU:
1. sit by the phone waiting for a call all night?
yeah....previously
2. chat online?
yes...very yes
3. save emails?
yes..some interesting stuff
4. wish u were someone else?
i need to think this properly....i fins wif myself at this moment...mayb i wish to be a better me
5. cry in front of friends?
no!!
SO:
1. do you get jealous easily?
not sure, mayb not
2. what have u been doing these past few days?
nothing much
3. what are you thinking about now?
wu liao...wonderin who create tis..can let time pass
4. what did you do last night?
did some dinner with kath
5. what did you last say to a friend last night?
good night(to slow
)
6. when will you marry?
right after i am stable with the One
7. When did u last receive a gift?
my bday gua...
8. when did you last drink alcoholic beverages?
2 weeks ago...vsop(not really nice)
9. what was your greatest bet ever made?
a few ringgit during cny
oh no....i play much more in between...
10. is all fair in love?
no
11. most romantic words?
rose, promise me you will never die no matter what happen(quote from titanic, that is lame)
12. would you give up your career for love?
dunno
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
started to miss you every second
I started to miss you. I miss the every minutes and second you are by my side. I regretted never treat you, i am sorry for the stratch on your heart. I am careless. I forgot that you are the one that is always be with me no matter rain or cold night. You show me that the day is sometimes long and sometimws short as well. How come i never realize the moment i lost you. I promised if you are back i will never get any one to replace you. Please back...my dear Carlo..
*sobsob*
My C.R watch was lost last night when i was in sunway pyramid. Should i say old one never goes, new one never came but.....i still much in love with it. Right now, i am trying to accept the fact that I had lost it whenever i was out. I just cant adjust my brain not to look at my left wrist when i want to know the time of the day. I need to get a new one, a new cheap one this time. I just cant afford to lost another one again.
Details:
Name: Carlo Rino
Aged: approximate 6 months old
Appearance : Silver color with grey face and silver needle. Scratches on top left.
Born place: Mid valley, Kuala Lumpur
Time of Missing:around 9.30pm
Date of missing:29 Dec 2005
Place of missing: The distance between Romp to GSC or between GSc to Walk In
Photograph: None(to which i regret)
Saturday, November 26, 2005
bravo!!! student id!
it seems unbelieveable i am here to blog again and it is mostly imposibble that i was fully awake when it is only 7.30am. OMG i had jus slept for 4 hrs only. But seemed like dimsum breakfast was so much effective for waking up early. so, the 1st trip we went is to the golf resort, which i already forgotten the name. Then we step our foot on Water city resort. What a great water city. I shall attach the photo here as well. And i must must must suggest to ah too to bring us(the whole family) to have a vacation there. *grin* i guess this is the 1st ever water city apartment available in m'sia. I come together with fish ponds, water park, kayaking, go-cart and basketball futsal court. That is a real wonderful place for our next trip, i guess. and the rates are reasonable as well. arrggghh....cant wait to have another trip at the spot..... then I visited Taman Mini Malaysia. The entry fees is quite expansive which is rm10, but with mmu student id, we manage to get in at RM4. That is not bad to become a student afterall, there are so much priviledge once we flash our student indentity card*wicked smile* But can i still use it when i am 30 years old *thinking*
Continue Reading...after a long way..
it had been a very long time since my last blog. Of course so many things happened in between. I always wanted to blog, as this has become my routine but my pc dont allow me. I was hacked by spyware, even spybot can make no different on it. So, there my lovely(can i say it is macho pc :p) pc gone, washed by ah jeck cd,by bzai. Maybe this is the only way to save it. Anyway i should report the current situation
Time: 1.21am
Location: Melaka
Mood: Tired but looking forward for great fun
On the air: Bu De Bu Ai (wilbert n xie zi)
Sitting on: cushion boss seat
Bad: was waiting almost all the day
-bus to transit
-transit(30 mins)
-when buying a can of justea at jusco(damn it)
Good:
- i am back in malacca again after 2 n half years
-attending PL bday party
-getting to know another circle of fren
-looking forward for 2molo great breakfast(what wil it be huh?)
Finally, lots of thanks to hanni for accompany me all the times. We did had a good laugh on that loud speaker *wicked smile* *lolz*
p/s: i will be blogging when i am back in cyber, hopefully....
if the line, computer and time is allowing
Monday, November 14, 2005
Finally, somebody getting married among us
Counting when will one of my friends get married, maybe he, maybe she,maybe not, that must be still long way to go. But during the trimeaster break, guess what?.....I WAS INVITED TO A FRIEND WEDDING!!!! yeah.....finally dreams come true..the lucky person was Kelvin Hue, someone from my secondary school but..he is not the luckiest, because we are luckier than him because this is the first ever wedding among our friend. (perhaps we dont practice getting marry early) So, we(me,bzai,katt,jessy,yip n shukyuan) were invited to be "zi-mui". This is a fat chance of course to have fun on that gang of guys. We was really really excited. Katt jumped excitedly when we heard the horns sound coming nearer to our hotel(the bride room). *lolz*. Even ah kin prepared with singlet in case we want him to echo the strip off show. *winks* Then, we drove through the whole town with loud horn to make it greater. Even the red color of the traffic light cant stop our car from following the married couple Benz. Though this is an MBA(married by accident) case, I can felt the happiness of the face of the bride. Perhaps this is a new trend for nowadays youngerster to proceed to another stage of life. If not, most singles might be ended up getting married later in their life. I know it is kolot to say this, any how I still would to wish kelvin and meiling live happily ever after...
here it comes the photo(though it is 3 weeks after the exact blog)
Saturday, October 08, 2005
pre-genting trip
here I am, on 8th october, in cyber, going to overnight before going to genting. Why genting? I mean again? I also dont know. Looked like we had some investment there and we need to see how it is developing constantly. Is it a brilliant respone? I dont even remember since when I had been so familiar to genting. Maybe I had the real fate with Mr goh tong.Well, he is very very rich indeed. Guess that not really much ladies will reject of becoming his mistress. Arrgghhh.....I dont need this of course, and I am just not that lucky one. Looking forward for the coming night, at apartment ria(jessy had booked n pay for it earlier). What the funniest thing is that we were like having a pre-genting trip here, in cyberia. We all were taking one bag each while boarding the lift..hehe....
Continue Reading...Sunday, October 02, 2005
McD October Fruit Pet
Ladies and gentlemen,
Take a look at the picture below. Have a guess of what is it...
no doubt, you are right. It is the green apple box that you usually come across in the pasar malam. But, if you notice the lower left corner of the picture you might question, since when has McD come out with its own green apples? Green apples? Fast food? They is no way that they are related to each other! Here it goes to the unsolved question.....
Kindly represent......
McD has come out a series of fruit pet for the month of October. This adorable small toys are available at only RM3.99 at any Mc Donald outlets on the month of October. Have a box of your favourite food pet now, ranging from different colors. And yes, this Green Apple Cinnamonroll is mine!
another picture of my litttle pet
Saw the only green apples on the Cinnamonroll head?
Disclaimer: This post is for private use only. Not related to any publication or promotion issue of any company
Continue Reading...Saturday, October 01, 2005
Differential equation
Should I say I that I have good memory. I dont think so. I am real bad in maths. But, anyhow some strange equations keep flashing on my mind. It is the great differential equation(i guess).
Properties: A point is differentiable if it is continuous from that point to the left and from that point to right on a domain axis. If f is not continuous at a, we say f is discontinuous at a, or f has a discontinuity at a.
The Question:
1)Is it still differentiable at the same point after a time or
frequency shift?
2)Is it still differentiable if there is a jump on that point?
3)How if the funtion is no longer a function of two plain
variable of X and Y, but it is involving an arbitrary variable
of Z?
Fact: F(t) is obviously not differentiable at the instantenous of t.
At least I did not return all my maths to the lecture *wink*
Friday, September 30, 2005
click on the link
Now, it is an end to the torturing four consecutive days of final exam. Anyway, it is not the real end of final exam yet as I still have another last paper to go. At least I have a day off, I mean without notes and tutorial to worry about. I had actually packed my notes of the previous paper into one big pile.*gigs* I just cant wait for the last paper to end.Normally i packed my notes after the last paper. But I was thinking why not I packed it up right now, I am not busy afterall. As usual, my pile of notes is thicker than a new pile of Double A A4 paper. This is not good for environment, I have no choice. That is student; notes,slides,calculation and tutorial, A4 papers are the medium of our learning process. Unless I didnt print notes. I am just not that multimedia people. You know, in the sense of Multimedia University, everything should be conducted multimedia-ly. As a MMU student, it is a shame that I did not fully utilise the facilities for online learning system. I run no far from traditional method of learning except for i downloaded the notes and I print it out. A big applause for FinePrint founder for saving my A4 paper and inks. Slides printed out by FinePrint are obviously bigger in size and uses lesser of space.*thumbs up*. Well, back to my 2inches thick notes, I am still wondering whether to keep it or left in my wardbode. Perhaps I till need it for supp in case in failed in any subject, touch wood. Hopefully, I will pass either it is with flying colours or not. I do not want to take supp. Ok well back to my purpose of blogging today. I want to add link to my blog.*wink*. I had just learnt a bit of HTML last two night. Here the link. Quite funny one. Hope that it works here.
have a click here
Monday, September 26, 2005
intro to html
While doing revision on ecp, i found out i like doin html. It is not that tough at all. It is much simpler than programming. I tell myself to learn more about it during break. Goin to come out with a more advance layout for my blog. ecp is not that boring afterall.At least i got to know a bit about html.But it is still long way to learn it. Anyway, this is the first day of final exam. another tough week to go before saying *cheers* for holiday
Continue Reading...Saturday, September 24, 2005
25 sept 2004
This is 12.05am. Ooo.....i am just sensitive to these kind of dates. It is another 24 hours to go before my final. EPM, what a headache. Wondering will anyone countdown for that as me..hehe....i am crazy. i am just little bit nervous..no....is a lot nervous...yes...25 sept...a date to remember..aiks.......better back to epm ....
Continue Reading...Thursday, September 22, 2005
rintihan exam week
As usual, once in a sem, this bad feeling comes again. Again, i regretted what i had done and what i had not done. Regretted not having full attendance to lecture let alone not paying full attention during classes. Arghh.....study week is always like this. Seemed like i had never had a tension-less study week. Guess this is the process of life. This time it is four consecutive days with each subject a day. EPM, ECP,ETM followed by BHM. Sleepless nights are to begin. I had no confident at all on these subject, but what to do? I have no choice except to do whatever i can in this last few days.Just wish that the question is not too hard. Shyan just smsed me asking any of my friend going to Genting to witness the 2nd malaysian idol. I dont think anyone i know will be goin. None of my friends are malaysian idol craze though. Moreover the quality of this season is not that fantastic. They are good but there are not what i expected. allright, back to my exam mood. I had done the more daring things again. I went for steamboat last night with jessy,too n sn. OMG i never did that before. Anywhere, really had a nice time being with you all. You all gave me the warmth i needed the most during this tension week. Besides, i wasted whole noon playing table tennis and badminton. That was crazy but great game indeed. No one to be blame because i am the one suggest of playing. ok well, back to by work, for my dad n mum and myself! jia you jia you jia you~(childish)
Continue Reading...Wednesday, September 21, 2005
You asked is there?
I said I dont felt
You said you felt a bit
I said I dont think so
You said I will feel it
Again I say no
You said...
It is not smooth
I said...
That is all right
You said...
I will felt bad soon
You said...
time and metres does matter
But I thought
I can settle
I thought
There is no problem
I thought
Love is everything
I thought
Things are like that
But you proved
I doesnt make sense
You didnt say
You wanna leave
You never say
You will stay
You never say
I love you
Because you said
you care
I felt
All this is fine
But you felt
This is not complete
**Qouted from some where dated 10 October
some of the foods *yummy*
ah yip with a big potential winning the rejoice rambut lurus model search...hehe
ah yip again posing with her hotdogs
some of the participant (from left bzai,jeck,leong n shukyuan)
ah too n ah shan busying with the chicken wings
satay man~the best satay in mentakab..come come come
i am the organizer , and the co-organizer my sis n bro
ladies in da house say yeah....yeahhhhhhh
yeah ...tanglung activity after bbq session
i had the most special tanglung with cartoon on it...yeah yeah
this is how 21 year old kiddo post with tanglung
all the participant
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
eat eat eat~ yeah
ladies sayssss cheerrss...
denggi ar???
I was awaken by the knocks of the door. Assuming it was from another door, i closed back my eyes. I was just tired to answer the door. Again, the knocking sound came again.Ooo....who the hell is that. Dont disturb my sleep ok. ok...well, let see what you want. It was jolyn, in her light green shirt. Maybe she wanted something from my room, ok. I just left her in front the door and went to my bed and dozed off. In half asleep, i heard only some of her words. Dont really remember what she said, sn, mum? i dont know. As i close my eyes, suddenly i heard my mum ask me to phone back. OMG, what happened this early morning. I grab my hp, switch it on, it was only 9.30 am. Press my mum office contact, in a few second, i got mum voice on the other end. "so,mum, anything happen?" "it is about u la, i suspect u kena denggi, fast fast come back" "hah, want meh? i wan study here o, i got no fever liao" "u come back la, denggi is like that de, at least somebody will look after u if u are hospitalize" "but my revision" "u bring back all your notes la, i dont know when u will be alright" "ok ok...i pack my thing then i go home la." So, i gather up all my notes in a file, then i packed some clothes and jerry send me to transit. i know i will be ok. i am tough [those was i had blogged before i went home, but as u can see it is not in my blog due to the line problem. so i write it again]
Saturday, September 17, 2005
there are 2 suns
Last night conversation with sn
Me:(seriously)eii...u got heard from ppl ar, it is said that there is
2 sun in the universe
SN :why?
Me: u no hear meh? tat is why cyber so hot ma. both sun oso shine in
cyber.
SN :this world only got one sun
Me :(giggle) nole....i really read in the star. U dont bliv u go online see.
real de.
inside MAP5530
SN : you all know ar, got one ppl say cyber gogt 2 sun le. thats y so heat.
she ask me search the star tim...siaw one..
Me :real de le...(giggle)
SN :i keep telling her there is one sun only in this world
Jessy: yelo, u didnt study history one meh? last time got one ppl shoots
all the sun d ma. Left this one here for us only
Too: where got? got in history meh? that is tales le...
car: hahaahhaahhahahaahhhahhahahahhahahahahhaahah
today before too,jessy n sn back we saw a fire brigade passed by. wondering where it gone. someone commit suicide again?sudd i got an sms from sn saying
" Wei. the fireman come cyber
shoot the 2nd sun so later not
so hot dy"
Monday, September 12, 2005
what sound is that?
this is monday noon, planning not to attend the classes since bar list is already out. And the most important point is i am not feeling well. My head was like spinning. And frequently i can heard wind blowing pass through my ears. Some sort of the sound when i spin in the Genting spinner. That is strange, i had never encounter this before. When i try to stand up i felt that i am goin collapse.Lucky i still manage to blog. Thanks a lot to jessie n leemin for the een assgnment q4. and thanks many many to pl. U indeed are my saviour. u r the hero...hehe...gin to have a nap soon....hope everythings get well when i get up..
Continue Reading...Monday, September 05, 2005
scorpion
i am actually quite tired for blogging. But suddenly some words flashed through my brain "Scorpions tends not to revealing themselve" how true is it? But i felt this is quite accurate on me. I dont know why? i tend to keep everything for myself, even my expression. I just never reveal 100% of my feeling towards anything, let alone relationship.The inner self of me is working so hard to hide everything from the people around me. Even my best best friend never had known the whole me. Maybe a stranger will knew more about me than everyone i know. I am just weird. Is it the pride is keeping me for not being open in the sense of sharing. Sometimes i just nod when the inside of me say hell NO....thing should not be that complicated i know. Ya, i know lots of thing, especially the rational theory, but all times, i have to chance to practic it. In no time, theory will just become ashes, reform with the air and again it came back to the 'nothing' origin.
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