Do not enter my room

I love fresh air.
I dislike locking myself in the room.
But recently, I had changed.
I no longer allows fresh air come into my room. I hope no one took a glance inside my room.
I am insecure, if i am to leave my room door open.
And I wish i need not to share the same corridor.
And the reason i changed is because
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I am damn ashamed of myself





Damn pathetic, it started with a small scratch. And one day my foot decided to slipped into the scratch. And yesterday my another foot decides to create another holes.

This is the most expansive bedsheet i had bought. 350 Thread Count. Why? The color fade off too fast and none of my older bedsheets was torn before.

I need to buy new bedsheets( and new mattress preferably)!!!!

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My awesome phone

Did i already announce what phone I am using? Hehe..not HTC Hero not even HTC magic, but a spec higher. This is the only phone that i truly want, i mean i love this phone and i go this phone. And it is not because this is the cheapest, the most practical phone, this is a phone I LOVE.

To be exact this is my third phone. The first was the legendary Nokia 3310(can throw to dog man) when the dream phone was 8310, followed by Nokia 2100 when the dream phone was color screen, followed by a second hand Nokia 3XXX when the dream phone was blah blah blah

And last June, I dreamt of having this phone and...taadah....I got it and loving it..My favorite phone (at this moment), proudly representing.... HTC Legend, still running on Android 2.1 Eclair.



My this awesome phone got:

1. A 5.0MP camera, which made me tried to dump my digital camera(Casio Z9) in my room. The camera is good enough with the present of daylight.

2. Google Maps, which is sufficient for me to travel around Klang Valley without getting lost. It is an online GPS, but it doesn't matter because I am on Digi SmartPlan aka. unlimited access to the internet

3. Tethering service, which enable me to share the internet connection with my notebook, anytime everywhere inside Malaysia la..But not good enough in mentakab because mentakab dont have H signal duh!

4. Facebook, Gmail and Twitter on the go..woohoo...Upload photo to fb, no problem wor hehe...

5. Blog, blog, i love to read people blog..oh yeah!

6. Games, my brother and sisters will full time engaged with my phone games when i am back at home.

Ok, no last but not least. More and more awesome pro :D and i hope you havent got bored yet :D :D

Last photo of me and my awesome phone ok...at Pulau Ketam :D

xoxo

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My almost blonde hair

Just to post up a photo i like very much.
I am glad i got a new hair cut, it got nicer if i am able to blow and style it.
Still unsure whether i like this hair color, because it looked very dull on average days :(
But, no regret because i tried it and it is not from hair studio(remember i am cheapskate?). Just the regrowth part is zzz....



Item used:
1. Hair dye Beauteen
2. Hair cut Hed Kandee
3. Contact lens FreshLook
4. Liquid Foundation Loreal True Match
5. Eyeliner pencil Simplicity
6. Blusher and Bronzer ELF
7. Lip Gloss Clinique
8. Brown Eyeshadow Daiso
9. Mascara Relian

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Dream 9736552755

I think i dreamt too much, and my sleep quality reduces. Le sigh. The weird thing is sometimes i dreamt in English, but mostly in Chinese. But i am sure, if i am to scold people in a dream, i will confirm in English. LOL


Dream 1:
It was a trip again, to a place so familiar yet so foreign. Together with A and X, and C. I guessed it was a long time since we meet each other. Remembered I pulled C from the pool, in a daylight and snap! change scene. It was dark night aready at some random street, a quiet one, A, X and I walking side by side as a tourist. A was talking to X, to ask about X life very politely. But what X told A was lies, all lies because I knew what happen to X all these months. My heart kept think oh bitch oh botch oh bitch how dare you. And out of nowhere, a flying object came near us. An airplane, no, a flying bus or a batman bus in black steel with rows of window emitting blue/green glow in dark light. Spectacular.

Dream 2:
Daylight. After an activity, Biscuit and GF invited me to a trip to Penang/Langkawi. To depart on the spot. Wohoo! Was very happy for meeting someone(i forgot who!)

Dream 3:
Hahaha..this one is funny. Found some treasure on the top of a wardrobe. Some little secret treasure. 4 boxes full of excitement. I took the object out of the 3rd box, and i cant put it back properly. struggling with time because some one is going to enter the room soon. And apparently that was not my room.

Dream 4:
E was telling me how unlucky she was, meeting her previous boyfriend. They worked at the same place, which was an old manufacturing plan. She was phobia over height, yet during work, her then boyfriend made her to go into a grilled elevator(she managed to show me how it looked like, with holes between the grills on the 6 surfaces of the elevator). Oh poor E, i am wondering how you are doing now.

Dream 5:
In the same night, i dreamt of going to fortune tale for twice. One man, another women teller. The only details i remembered was the man told me to got involved with jing yin zu bao (gold, silver etc..) in Sabah Sarawak for my career and the first thing come across to me was to collect pearls from the shore of Sabah.
Hahahaaa..funny max!


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My officemates :P

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Kota Kinabalu 12-16 Nov 2010

I am back from KK Trip!!!
I NEED to blog about this because this is the first time that I traveled alone. *Pats self* ^.^ Okla, i cheated. The first few days i spent to attend friends wedding. So i was only solo for 2.5 days. No big deal, but how many people can do that?? Can you can you? *pats self again*

Self achievements:
1. Slept in dorm, with common bathroom and toilet. (Was lucky because night 1, there were only 3 person in that dorm, night 2 no one checked into the dorm woot!)

2. Took local minivan to Kinabalu Park. RM15 for 1.5 hours ride. Departs when van is fully loaded. (Was a little hesistant at first, because I planned to take a tour package, but local should do the locals way hehehe.. Was lucky because driver offered the front seat, means no squeezing at the back of van risking any hanky panky. Driver was a very friendly guy that I was a little worried whe he was after, but nope I was wrong. There are still nice people around ^.^)


3. Tried to talk to people. (Easy one! Because I got sick of not speaking for whole day and I was afraid my mouth will stinks if I don't speak. I talk to Locals, Japanese Girl, Deutch Lady, UK man, American teens, Australian couple, HK family, and even a Russian Girl. But i think i can do better!)


4. Ate local food. Alone T.T(Alone means no share share food. But anyhow, I tried San Yuk Mee, BKT, Pasar nasi lemak and kuih, Kopitiam breakfast and street malay seafood. No big deal because I am already used to dining alone, just that unable to sample more food)


5. Went to island to chill.


Cons:
1. Unable to visit Poring Hotspring and Kundasang
2. Not enough of seafood diiner (But lucky there was a night Slow brought me to join her family, tasted steam siput V-.-)
3. Missed my big group travelling because i can't laugh out loud to myself :(
4. No one i can ask to hold my bags when i go pee-pee :P

Discoveries:
1. KK sunset at 5.56pm. By 6.30pm i was always rushing want to go back to dorm because i scare dunno what..


2. Pomelo in KK is cheap. The driver told me it was sold RM1 per piece in surban OMG my fav fruit

3. I met a Japanese girl who share the same birthdate as mine. OMGWTFBBQICANDIENOW, what a coincidence *still damn hyper*

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KK Solo

On this trip, I want:

1. To go chill by the beach(Pulau Sapi, maybe?), with a good book, favorite drink (Kampai?) and dozed off to woke up by the splashing sounds

2. To have do the canopy walk and soak in the hotspring in Kota Kinabalu Park

3. To meet new friends, and talk about my life at least thrice

4. To sample delicious local food

5. To do foot massage at the place Hanni recommended

6. To find myself again, before I am lost too far, body and soul together travel to nirvana wtf hahhaha

Ok, small training for future solo backpacking starts this November in Kota Kinabalu :p Let's see I will be alive to tell the story xD

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some many things

It is the end of September, so many had happened to the people around. Friends, all closed one were tying the wedding knot. Everyone is having a new stage of life, but not me. Friends got married, friends got engaged, friends leaving country for good, friends pursuing new career, some got a new car, a new home, a new pet but I am still here not progressing. If I wad asked before this year, I would say "Bah, my life is just good, I just want to keep it up". I don't know, it seemed like everything is moving too fast leaving no room for me. Except one, my car was broken last week and it cost me an arm to fix it Wtf. Right now this moment I felt exhausted, it seemed I had been chasing and pushing throughout the year, yet I reach nothing. If this is quart life crisis, thank you no thank you very much because the quart had slipped by some ages ago. Careers, Finance, Friendships, Relationships, Health.. i excel in none. Crisis should end now.

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This Point

At this very moment of life, I felt I am a observant tower. I saw the low and high tides, I saw then sunrise and sunsent, the moon and stars sets on and unsets. Friends making a big leaps all the time, while I am still here, still observing, evaluating and maybe worrying the future that awaits me. Last year this time, I am sure I am not having this feeling, so do many many many years ago. If this is an overdue quarter life crisis, I guess it is easier to be deal with. It is not about a downfall nor a high rise,it is just this weird unexplainable feeling. Not a complain though, at this moment of life I just felt things is getting too fast beyond my speed of living. Or should i reiterate that I somehow felt my agenda is not interesting enough. Or that my imaginations are not wild enough. Things are getting too confusing right now, that i am in the line between happy and unhappy.

But for sure, I felt contented observing lives now.

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Barley anyone?

A relaxing saturday, a cup of coffee(or two?), sitting at the side of the window observing at passerby (without rushing anywhere),that described a great afternoon. Colorful flags, passing cars and sweet chocolate cakes so flavorful. I like, i love this simplicity. It doesn't have to be expansive, what it need is just the right setting, the right mood and of course the right person to enjoy all these together. Simple, not complicated, sometimes killing the time is beautiful. Sometimes, life can be so simple, so enjoyable, that we don't need seek hard for it.

Again, I felt the law of attractions exist. Really. I knew what I want and I asked for. I will be attending a meeting, which was located at the traffic jam hotspot. How I wished I can postpone the meeting to the afternoon, and ring ring ring...my wish was granted. Meeting changed to 4pm, great and I was thinking..opps..I might stuck in jam too, (after the meeting) and jeng jeng jeng, received another call saying the meeting need to be commerced at 3pm. So, by the time i exit the town, the jam shall not start yet right. Right? Lalalaala

My name is Esther and I have a confession. Last sunday, I went to my student house and asked for some pandan leaves(her house got garden of pandan, no joke!), because I want to boil some barley drinks. Didn't get to buy any barley, I put the leaves inside the fridge. After one week, which is today I throwed away the leaves from the fridge because it is drying up. But also today, I finally boiled the barley drinks, I boiled it with the the pandan leaves too. And I actually went to dig the dustbin for the dumped pandan leaves. Ahahahahaha. Now you know how hygenic I am. Want some barley ma'am?

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Smartphone again..boring

Now i got extra reason to get a new phone.(Read: New Android smart phone). I am starting to track my expense and to review my lifestyle. Not that I had never track my expenses, I did track months ago(or year ago?), it just don't work, partially because I did it ala laid back style, note book and pen la if you still don't get it so by the time I am free to get in touch with my laid back tools, my memory will failed me and soon it kills the habit of recording down my expenses too.Btw, my current phone hv a the function to track expenses, but it took like 34974 seconds to load that damn application. By the time i finish load it, i am already half blind seeing the "loading.." scene. And there goeas another 98346seconds to close the application. Imagine that, i am going to spend 5 times a day. How many 20875535 minutes was wasted on the loading time huh. So enough is enough. I want a phone, a new and smart n trendy one. Not going to rush the purchase, i gave myself 2 months to dream about it. On 10 June 2010, I am still berkobar-kobar, i will go buy that damn phone and start to be a geek!

Guess what, when I had completed the paragraph above sometimes ago, I was sort of over the moon when i clicked in digi page. Digi is offering HTC Legend at RM999, which is like half price of the retail price, with a data contract for 2 years(nay, for this part) . More than a dream come true, I was effing excited and the first thing i type in the phone was "OMG, Digi is having...." and my browser can't stop browsing for its review and specification. Cool! Marvelous! Happy Happy Happy. (Btw, if you havent know, Legend is actually much cooler than Hero and of course Magic,, and some said iphone :p)

I dreamt a very funny thing last night. Despite the hype of leaked Iphone and me poking around looking for android phone, I dreamt about having a canggih camera, the one CC is using. Canon S11 to be exact. Off all things, I dreamt of I am owning this camera *sweat* and bringing it around for a trip to a giant waterfall located somewhere in Malaysia. Ok, a little difficult, but try to imagine a roadtrip within Malaysia and a waterfall so high, as high as the one in UP except it was so real! I had a hard time to press the shutter, to capture the beautiful waterfall, to camwhore(wtf! right) and to take a photo of mum with the waterfall. And the weather was hot too. And somehow but I don't how maybe because the weather was too hot, I got grumpy and pissed that I completely ignored him, in all the way I can do. Did him did something unforgivable? What a heartache and I can always be that mean person, even in a dream. Le Sigh.

Came another dream last night. There I was extra ordinary close with one cousin that we talked about baking and travelling. Within the dream, we were more like a pair of friends instead of cousin. You know, friends that talk lots of crap, laugh like crazy and bitch together with. This is really funny, and it is amizing how we can manipulate our dream because in real life, i only met this cousin occasionally and speak to each other maybe once a year. Dream! I like to dream.

Another thought came across my mind on "Why do I need a smartphone?" again. My calculator is spoiled. I saw the calculator on Iphone(cool!) and is does look like a real calculator, with touchscreen. If you haven't know, calculator is quite important for me. I need to calculate my living expensense, home utilities fees, account subject related(read:tuition), flight ticket, convert currency(yeaps, sometimes I dreamt buying stuff using USD too), travel purpose and banyak banyak lagi. So instead of buying another cheapo RM5 calculator, I will be sourcing that RM5 to the smartphone fund.

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Hero oh hero

For now I want this phone. I had been keep thinking it for more than 12 hours already.

HTC Hero

Slim, sleek and stylish. Priced at 1.7k. Iphone comparable.
Being me, me I know that this will be hangat hangat tahi ayam again.
But I really need a canggih phone wor.
I am mobile software engineer leh, need one presentable phone T.T
Or this one oso can la

HTC Magic

RM1.3k

Ai..let's see am I going to own any of these

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Good news keep coming

New Hate: Irrelevant calls on Offfice Phone
I fucking hate to pick up the phone in the office and I don't understand why I must took that phone which is 300% fucking not my call. Why must I pick up the damn phone. Why must the admin not come to work and most annoying fact is why the heck telemarketing people won't stop calling. I don't even feel motivated enough to greet the person with the standard "Good morning, this is MyAwesomeCompany". I just "Halo" the way, and my mind had to gone through the process to reiterate "I don't farking want to listen nor talk to you and I wont give you my boss number" into a better sentence. So to any telemarketing personnal that come across my this entry, when a person greet you with a brief "Hello" in behalf of the company istead of the standard "Good morning, this is MyAwesomeCompany", please pretend you called the wrong number and hang up.DUH! Really fark this shit kao kao.


Oily mouse is annoying. This was my second time wiping my mouse already for TODAY. Don't ya tell me your mouse is very clean and mint. I don't believe,because each time my coll passed me the test phone, I will discreetly wipe the phone before using it with a tissue/clothes. Yucks to max. And to begin with, I wipe my desk with my own cloth every single day. I refused the Indonesia cleaner help, every each damn time because I suspect their cloth had wiped thousand of germ-infected toilet seat and another thousands of office cubicles and I never see her wash the clothes too. What they do is just spray spray spray to the cloth. Someone please convince me the spray better to be anti bacterial. Shoo shoo, cleaner don't ever come wipe my work desk ok. Please save your spray Tq. Back to the mouse, I knew it was oily because I ate breafast(which is normally bread) on my working cubicle, so sometimes I think I shouldn't eat in my cubicle anymore, but I am only eating bread ok. Not mee curry ok, to compare with others that took greasy roti prata with kuah dhal and I swear I am the only one that wipes the mouse on daily basis. Ok, don't compare ok esther you don't compare. Ren bi ren, bi si ren ok. OMG-Geliness.


Digi had a very very affordable plan for Iphone 3GS. Can do EPP for 24 months. ZOMG so great, until I read on horoscope saying I should not purchase anything expansive until May13. Why like that the horoscope. Kekeke but good good good, now I need not to worry whether worth it or not to fork out RM150 each month just to own that damn phone. Great, very great. Peace of mind until May13, because who knows when I'll be tempted again hahahaa.


Good news keep coming. Well, not actually "news" la, Just yesterday was a mystery because I was searching desperately(for a document, a reply and a solution) very very the fan. But today almost all were solved except one that need more waiting. A reply, made so many calls back to back, but at last "hope is still around government officer". I got a reply, together with a solution.Save lots of troubles to purposely travel 300km. And this is a favor, not for myself though. Once in a century I am doing a favor somebody and this should be recorded. Kao tim. Oh yes! I am the queen of the world hahahaha. A document, so important yet I totally forgot where did I put it(I sometimes worry about myself). Searched in Mentakab, found nothing, search almost all corners in the room but to no avail. Some document so important, that I will caused me so so so much trouble if I really lost it. A piece of thick paper that might caused me few days of annual leave, and ringgits, and lots of nagging(I sometimes worry about myself AGAIN), if I really lost it but tadaa while lying horizontally on my bed to end the day, my vision came across a black box beneth the wardrobe. It rang my bell and a light bulb was formed in midst of the air.Jackpot! Document was inside and a lot more valuables cards too. I am the queen of the world. Hahahaha. The last one though, is another good wait. I wanted it to be not too soon, but I am anticipated with the results too. So far, the wait shall serves as a better outcome, if it is not the Best yet. It was positive all these while, but still the wait is not. Allright, good news shall keep coming :)


All above was written on a different timestamps, so it is not that I had so many thought a one go. This is will be the temporary solution to my inconsistency on blog post. That also means that, this blog will be reverting back to what it used to be when it was started. It will be less photos, less recommendation, or I shall say I will be full of words. And it will be so so random that you might have difficulty to get what I am saying, because all these was compiled in a notepad whenever thought came across my mind. Enjoy, or maybe not!

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Master said

Female A,27- Does not like to listen. Impatient. Advised to get married late, >30 years old. Should not think too much.

Female B,27- Does not have good relationship with people, especially women. Need to migrate and stay on the hills. Should have a job that doesn't have too deal too much with career hierarchy. Clever. Good to get married early. More stabilized life after 36.

Female C,27- Nothing. She got nothing. Clever, but she still got nothing. Should get married as late as possible. Amitabha.

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First post of 2010

It is raining outside and I am stuck in the office, and I saw my previous post was 16 December, OMG it had been so so so long I had never log in. So HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 everyone even though it is already February now.

CNY will be here in 2 weeks, and I don't feel anticipated for it at all. Ai, why like that? Previous years I was so excited all about the day, the new clothes, the new shoe and the kuih and even nail polish design. Am I getting older, or do I celebrated enough of CNY already. I don't know, I just want to rot at home with my most comfortable pyjamas lookalike home clothes and watch TV while eating pistachio or cashew nut. But checking my list:-

1. New clothes - Bought already, RM25 dress from Sg Wang!
2. Shoe - Fix the white wedges a bit, and it will only be the second time I am wearing
3. Undergarment - Not new, but no one going to check my bra/under so it doesn't matter, need to save the credit to buy more in Hatyai if the trip is jadi
4. Kuih-muih - Not my responsibility anymore, because my prettiest golden hair 155.5cm sis will kao tim all keke
5. Nail design - Check, nail polish all available already
6. Gotong-royong - Did a little already that day, still have time for it

So it looks like everything is complete, I just left with the mood only.
Oh, a mental note for self that I need to find the answer for "Why so fat liao one?"

What the fark betul!?!

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