today is the last day to be in cyber...2 months holiday coming soon.Thatmeans that I might not be log in here for the coming 2 months. Finally i gone through all the papers: tech com,maths,control,micoE and datacom. Hopefully taht i will pass with flying colors. Actualy i should not be here, i should now in genting...but i postponed it. So far, i havent regret on that decision. At least I earned a steamboat, a shoping trip with hanni(this is the fist time we shop together, i really felt so good bout it....promise that there will be second time),i sleep a lot(this is so so so great)....really a lot,i tasted the bak kut teh in Sk and i got myself wangleehom 'xing zhong de ri yue'. Too bad i am unabe to attend his autograph session.
The coming trimester will be the longest i guess. Bzai will not be around even weekdays for one trimester. So do ly n jason. That's life, sometimes we just need to practice seperation. Means that no people will be doing silly thing again next trimester....hmmmm...lucky i am not alone, sn wil still be here, too n see oso wil be here. But i guess there are still some missing part. I will appreciate what we had done this trimester! Oh ya. i notice that i earned another frenship with ly,jason and jerry this trimester. They are just simply crazy, which meke us a strong team...heheh....yamcha team!!
well, it is time to get ready to go home. Mun n Dad must be missing me a lot because they called twice yesterday. ciaozzzz

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Another two days to go, but i felt I had use up all my fuel. I cant focus for a long time. My mind fly away everytime i sat down more than 20minutes. By this moment, I really need concentration. But my heart does not want to hear to my mind. It keep wander, from the very long time ago, that i dont even know the exact time, to few weeks ago, to few days ago, yesterday, this morning, tomorrow, next week, next trimester,next year.....Perhaps that is Scorpian. Sometimes I felt that i rather to lie on my bed and take no concern with everything that happened. No history, no questioning, no reasoning, considering, no decicioning ang totally no future planning. But that is not living. marlov pyramid, food, air, security......i have it all but still need concentration. Just for these two days....i just want to borrow...


**stress really make a big impact on everyday living. over-stress is just too bad for living.

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I am enough with that. I get nothing eventhough I had given my best. Fatal. That is the only word to describe what is in my mind. Who says "xi wang zai ren jian?"That is bullshit. It is faith that close the path. Faith does not want me to follow that path. Will Him open another door for me? Everyone says He will, but again i felt i am diagnosed fatal in that. No cure, no medicine, no breath, no a cm cube of oxygen. That defined fatal. Is that what comes round goes round? Is that a lesson for me from the previous attitude? This lesson is just too expansive and time consuming indeed.

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There are a few more days to go before final examination. Felt that I am changing on the way i do my revision. I felt I am less tension than previous semester. I never go to library this trimester. This is a good thing or bad one? I wonder, i will know it from the result of course. Am I too relaxing this time? I guess not, I hope I am not careless in that again. I just do not like to compare to other people. I am myself and I have my own way to manage myself. I do not think anyone else is able to influence me. I am more into individual. Perhaps this is not really a good habit. ...Is It because I am afraid I am too lag to compare with others? Perhaps....
If to compare individualistic, I am not somebody that never think behalf of other people. Most of the time I am considering from all the sides, I try not to offend everyone. But in reality, it is impossible to make it. In the end of the day, there is still people who got hurt. The is never everyone gain.....that is life, there is gain and there is of course lost. Maybe this balance the meaning of life. If there is not tears, there should be no laughther at the same time.
On the other perspective, is it possible individualistic is some kind of carelessness in managing own attitude. But i guess we can control it. If there is no desire, there is no action. It is just as simple as that. It is on the decision whether we want to or not to. It is a unusual thing to certain people, but it is also a habit to other group of people. From want, it had become a need. The is no particular medicine for this disease, even a logic theoritically talk will not make a slight different. Only one thing can can the whole, it is lesson. A good lesson really will wake people up unless we, the people do not use to practice consciousness. If it is so, we will be forever in our own world, not to say other had wake up and make a step toward reality.

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yes, she was on stage. with a pink shirt. Holding the mic nervously, she started to sang. With applauses from us, she was back to normal. On that familiar song, she began to dance a bt. One by one the audience went to the stage, started to dance around her, she sang to her nicest voice. That is realy a very familiar songs to me, but i can not recognize which. Then, another guy approch her, with orange pink horizontal stripes shirt. They danced happily. But I am just watching down the stage. And who is that guy? There i recognize him, but not here. I just know that he was familiar with me. Perhaps i just saw his back. What the song is? Who that guy was? Why was them so familiar. Awake, i remembered my sms tones rang. Oh Shit, it was tat gal. What is this? Coincidently or the six sense?????

**sometime what already happen in the dreeam might happened again in real life, howewer, you will only notice it when it did really happens in real world. At that moment, you might felt that miracle did happen in some space of this world

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