For The Year 2005

The best part of 2005?
The family love and the friendship I had gained of course.

Q:The worst part of 2005?
Lost my hp(though it is 2100) while working in Genting. Well, I replaced it with a color screen.

Q: Did you make any new friends in 2005? Who?
Yes I guess but just cant figure out who he/ she is. People comes and goes in my life.
Hmm....Some when working in Genting, some from Malacca and maybe some from cyber

Q: Any new crushes in 2005? Who?
Yes yes yes. recently deeply in crush with Singapore jue dui superstar contestant.
Hong Jun Yang- He can sing well but it is a bit unlucky as he is not the superstar. Anyway he managed to get signed with Universal.
real crushes in a year? Of course there are a few. *gigs* one of the latest one is the cute guy next to fri german class. I guess he is foreigner, mayb korean(as what hanni said). Nah, he dont even know i exist and i dont even know his name. Tat's crush. Not more to reveal *blush*



Q: Do they know?
Already mentioned as above. As for him, I do hope he will notice this. Keep this in mind, Scorpio is always mysterious.


Q:Who will you never forget?
All my dear friends.


Q: Who did you wish you did not meet?:
None. I believe that there are reasons why I was arranged me to meet


Q: Did you have a boy/girlfriend in 2005?:
No


Q:Did you fall in love in 2005?:
Nein, aber das ist nicht lieben

Q: Did you catch someone in a lie in 2005?:
Yes, quite a number


Q:Did you call them out?
No, I only observed it



Q: Did you get caught in a lie? What was it?:
I think no, I am a not bad lier. I lied naturally some of the time.

Q: Funniest moment of 2005?:
Too much of funny moment. Perhaps the Guys' performance during Uno games in Genting
can be ranked as the top 5. The Sunway trip when we were shouting when we so a small
dark spot on his neck for which we thought is shit. *lolz* and maybe also of abby and
jerry performance on chicken wing war last night?

Q: Most embarrassing moment of 2005?
Dont really have. I hope wearing arena tee with sport shorts for having lunch in
Wong Kok Char Chan Teng is not too embarrassing...



Q:The funniest thing you you saw on TV in 2005?:
Malaysian Idol special performance??????
KungFu mahjong


Q:The funniest thing you heard on the radio?
Nothing much. Less tune to radio though



Q: Did you take any vacations in 2005? Where?:
Genting, Malacca( consider as vacation, well I was having great time)


Q:Any new hobbies of 2005?:
Nothing much, start getting back to table tennis

Q: Did you get a new job in 2005?:
Part Time job as service crew in karaoke in genting

Q:Did you lose a job in 2005?:
Yes, as school is reopen, i need to resign


Q: Did you host a party in 2005?:
Yes, my 21 bday party. And also the 1st ever mid-autumn bbq


Q: Did you get in any car accidents in 2005?:
No, but nearly during CNY. *touch wood*


Q: Did you get a ticket in 2005?:
Bus ticket to KL from my mum

Q: Were you ever arrested in 2005?
No of course!


Q: Where did most of your money go?:
Food, clothes and a lot to tuition fees!


Q:What song will always remind you of 2005?:
Gurdian Angel- junyang
Bu de bu ai- wilbert n xie ze
Mimpi- Malaysian idol

Q: What do you wish you'd done more of?:
Study...Good time to spend with family and friends. And more more more sleeping


Q:What do you wish you'd done less of?:
Being weird, clothes washing


Q:Thing you were really good at in 2005?
Complaining on people, laugh at people and sleeping lo

Q:Thing you wish you were better at in 2005?:
Time management, studies, communicating and love love love

Q: In 2005, did you lie to miss a day of work / school?:
Yes, some of the time but i didnt lie. I will be frank if I am lazy to class

Q:Did you move in 2005?
Ya, moved my bathroom to clubhouse..*lolz*
moved my table from living room to my bed room as well


Q: Did you wish on a shooting star in 2005?
Not even in TV

Q: Has your wish come true?
Yes, I am still alive at least. And I passed all the papers throughout the year


Q: Did you have a sleep over in 2005?:
Dont understand...

Q: Did you make-out in public in 2005?
Pardon me, what is that?


Q:What's the ringer on your cellphone?:
Four leave clover OSt for my sms

Q: Did you drink too much in 2005?:
Not really. Drink on some of the ocassion only

Q: Your favorite commercial of 2005?:
Ikan di laut, asam di darat. di dalam periuk, di situ muafakat
The hari raya commercial on the bus driver n his childern*lols*

Q: Did you go to any concerts? Which ones?:
Yes, Went to Lee Hom concert. Cost me rm280 but it worth!


Q: Something you couldn't leave home without in 2005?:
Slipper or shoe


Q: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
Do not take things for granted. We only plan for it. Always plan your time wisely





So today is the last day for 2005. Tomorrow onwards, I am a 22 years old lady. Time is moving so fast. Just like last year, nothing much for the new year eve. Really sorry for dissapointing my fren for not join yours activity. I just cannot stay long in crowd. I still remembered of writing my resolution and hide it in my cupboard while I was in secondary . I am not going to do that this year. I am already 21. I just want to be a better me, giving the maximum effort on everything I do. And wish that everyone around me to have a happy, worry-less year ahead. And of course the best of health for Dad and Mum. Flying color for shyan n tyng in stpm and spm. And also a higher pointer for myself. And everyday a happy day for everyone that i know.

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Christmas dinner, No! it is pre-Christmas Lunch

Date: 23 December 2005 ( Friday)

Location: English Bistro & Pub, Cyberjaya

Time: 12 pm - 2 pm

Transport : PFL 2608

Participant: me, abby, liang yeow, jerry

Program of flow:

12.10pm : Departure from MMU Cyberjaya

12.15pm: Pick Jerry at Cyberia C2

12.18pm: Arrival at Century Square (Yellow Foodcourt to be exact)

12.20pm: Surprised by the ushers of Bistro, they was wearing the deer 'tanduk'
on their head. Look sexy but not pretty in their mini top and mini skirt.

12.21pm: Each of us get a goodies bag; a door gift from the manager of the Bistro
The red wine-like gift indeed impressing us as this is the first christmas gift
of the year 2005. *yeah yeah* We felt a bit like those VIP, because the manager was
there to serve us. *gigs* . The christmas music playing on the air is very heart
warming. Eyes were looking around to seek some familiarities, but i saw none
because that was my first time being there
The surrounding is very comfortable, with no more than 10 tables on the dining hall.
No like others restaurant which offered buffet. This one is a very pleasant one.
Unwrapped the door gift, a coupon inside, which is for our free wine or beer. Dig
deeper on the door gift, we found two keychain(one is tiger and another is heinneken),
a coin bag, a purple colour grape magnet and also a advertisement of a hair stylish
(ignore the ad).
12.25pm: Get every each of us a free flow of fruit punch. Pink color liquid with the tste of guava,
not a bad one. Still shy to move away from our table. Eyes were still looking around
to seek for permission. *gigs*(not really need the permission, we can just start to eat
whenever we like to, but we decided to be calm). Then here we go, after jerry
announcement to start the meal *lolz* I went straight away to the dessert part.
Saw a very lovely chocolate cakes decoreted with cofffee powder. I reserved part my
stomach for it. Yummy. Then I saw strawberry, yes ripe red strawberry and grapes
beautifully arranged on a silver tray. I took few of it and also a few slices of yellow
watermelon, on my mind to share it with the others participant. You may call me
weird for having fruit for appetizer, that is me! *lolz* The there I went for the main
course, the roasted Turkey.....*yeahyeah first time to have turkey for x'mas* . Took
some beef, and also prawn salad. Then some creamy danish and some tomatoes cream
as well. Get back to the table as the plate is almost full .

12.28pm: Eating in progress

12.50pm: 2nd round of food picking (jerry laughed at me because i took all my food wit a big
plate. He is the one who actually put all his salad on my plate *sob sob*)

1.15pm: refill drink, discover there was lobster soup but quite full by the time. So, we just took
one bowl for 4 people. yummmyyy....very very creamy with small chunks of lobster.

1.19pm: redeem our wine from the bar man. Red wine. Not nice, I just do not have the
knowlegde on wine. Saying cheers merry christmas, I just sip it like usual liquor.
Taste weird. Saw funny expression from jerry face too *lolz*. Took some photo
with b zai thru ly hp( some sort like village gal on tasted red wine on city)

1.45pm: took the last plate; which contains only strawberry and grapes. Another small plate
of turkey from ly for the last time. Still havent finish my wine yet. I got class at 2.30pm.
Too bad, how i wish to skip that class. Aber das ist Deutsch Klas, ich muss yeden tag
gehen. A bit worried that my face will blush after that drink then everyone might be
asking me am I drunk*lolz*

1.58pm : Request for bill. It cost everyeach of us RM 48. Reasonable. This is a western buffet
with nice environment, and come with red wine, and roasted turkey.

2.01pm: Leaving. B zai said we going for x'mas pre-supper tonight, rm 10 per head. Ja, wir
gehen zu Hause heute nacht. Wir wollen fische 'bakar' essen.

2.10pm: Rushing home to pack my bags and notes. Class at 2.30pm and I had prepare nothing
for it. Merry Cristmas everyone!!!

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Silent Night

Silent night, holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace

Silent night, holy night!
Shepherds quake at the sight
Glories stream from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia!
Christ, the Saviour is born
Christ, the Saviour is born

Silent night, holy night
Son of God, love's pure light
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With the dawn of redeeming grace
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth "




Dear Mr. Santa,

I had been behaving very good this year. I did nothing bad all the times. People say you exist if I believe in you. Now, Santa I really believe in you. All these years I had not written to you, because I do not believe in you and i do not have a chamber in my house. This year, I fully believe you travel all the world in Christmas from east to west. And I know you have other way to give away present to give present to good girl who do not have chamber. I know you will. I am a good girl and i always will remain so. Mr Santa, I believe, I do believe you will come to me.
*whispering* promise k, I will be a good girl. *wink*

Yours Esther.




Wishing everyone to have a warm silent night and merry merry Christmas!!!!

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Fate

Fate? What is fate? Somebody said fate cannot be changed. Some say fate is uncontrollable. And more people saying that today is the fate of previous. What is it really about? A verb, an adjective, or a noun? Acording to Oxford Student's Dictionary, the word fate can be define as "the power considered to control all events in a way that cannot be influenced". Do you agree with that? I believe every each of us have our own very unique opinion on what is fate. And it is also not surprising that most of us had never came across this question. Me, as an example had just come across this after i overheard some wise discussion on the radio. "ming yun shi she me ne?" or "what is fate?". The Dj was right. Her definition; which she read from a book is quite similar to mine, fate is "the result of the reflections of previous behavior which occurs today". It is said that what happens today is because of the past behaviour. The behaviour here can be simplify as the attitude or the choices that we had made before. To make it clear, I am here now because I had chosen of coming to MMU to pursue a degree three years ago. So, I am here is the reflection while three years back, when i am chosing to study in MMU is a behaviour. So, in general, I am the one who choose to have this fate. Though some of the time, the result is not always what we wanted previously. Afterall, life is no longer wonderful if everything is predictable So, the next time u say "ke neng zhe shi ming yun" or "maybe this is fate", perhaps you can think twice because i might always say "zhe shi wo shuo xuan zhe de" or "this is what i choose to". Doing so, I will not always blame on fate because fate is the reflection of what i had done in the past. Afterall, the fate i had today will be a history tomorrow. And nobody cares much on what had happened yesterday, what we are always looking at is the future. What will be happening in future, only god knows. We are just a small tiny creatures in this universal, we only have the right to plan on it without knowing what happens tommorow. Who knows maybe tomorrow will be raining eventhough it is predicted to be a sunny day, rite? instead of always blaming on the fate, why not we have a great day today and plan for a better tomorrow and most importantly forget about the unhappy past. Wake up tomorrow and thanks to your previous behaviour because you are still alive.

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How true is it?

Came across an intersting article from The Star few weeks back. Something about extra luck for exam. Hmm...how true is it? Gotta give it a try to figure out.

1) Aromatherapy; try burning sandalwood incense of oil while studying(wondering what is the smell of sandal wood, smell of wood huh??). It is said that sandalwood helps calm any agitated feelings before sitting for exam (agitated? is it same meaning with stress or nervous?) Also, burn frankincense for poor memory or jasmine for exhaustion. (gotta figure out all these scents from memory land, but i guess jasmine scent would work.)

2) Fengshui; try to get something to attract positive energy. Fish represent success. Keeping them in front of your desk brings good luck. if you cant get a fish, simply cut out a picture of a fish from magazine or newspapers and stick it on the wall in front of you.(shall i replace my leehom poster with a fishy poster??? Will rubber fish works?)

3) Crystal; a few gemstone to be carry around for luck and success purposes. Aquamarine helps release anxienty, fear and restlessness. Citrine helps give mental and emotional clarity, problem saving and memory.(aquamarine? citrine? no idea how the colors look like, I only have pink, purple;maybe this is aquamarine and light green beads on my right wrist. )

4) Food; some people used to take chicken essence for the strengh of brain,(but not me, i felt pretty awful to swallow those dark liquid so called "gai jing"). Some opt for the wonders of sugar. Chocolate should be a popular stuff to load into mouth during study period while some sucks sweets as a form of therapy.

5) The most important which the best of best is to start doing revision not at the last minutes ;p

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for the date of 29 october 2005

It is 1.13am, one hour after my birthday, on Shyan's yellow bed. Here I am, on Shyan's test pad writing for my 21st birthday. Forgotten since when I am so conscious with the date, time and atmosphere. Anyway, I am still much in the birthday mood. My legallity finally came. I am finally 21 years old after ten months of long neck waiting. Guess that this feeling evolves on everybody that was born later of the year. Let look it closer, I am exactly smaller than bzai 10 months and you know, that is longer than a normal pregnancy period. And because of that I am the youngest between bzai n sn and jessy is the eldest(= oldest). LOLzzzzzz.....
Well, I had so much people to thank. First of all, it is my dad and mum of course. A thank is not a suitable word for both of you. Even a milion of thanks is not enough to appreciate the tough and long effort both of you spend to raise me. Both of you gave me something that cannot be valued through money or gold or diamond. It is already 21 years I am protected by you, nurturing by you. Even some of the time, I showed that I am discontent of what I already had and I am always asking for more and more, deep inside my heard I am satisfy with everything that you try your best to give me. I want to apoligize for my bad -temper at sometimes, even though you showed that you never care for it. Both of you are the greatest people in the world that god had give me. Besides, hug and kisses for dad for cooking all the stuff for my little celebration. And it is no one other than mum who washed all the dishes that I myself will not wash for anyone *hugs*
Other than that, hugs for Shyan as well for baking such nice dessert for party before you left for genting. Though you are not besdie me right now, I will always wish that you will be blessed always. I will always remember what you had done and it is quite touching that you bought that shirt for me. that is a real surprise. Though not an expansive one, the heart is what that matters.
Also, to sn n bzai, you gals make it real 'real'. Thanks a lot. I really mean it. And to Kerbau jessy, thanks for coming from so far to share this moment. Not to forget ah too for fetching kerbau here. And Yip, to be the 1st supporter(maybe you are hungry...hehe) And ah Shan to rush here from her mum's dinner to her this little fren bday party. Also for eeting, loh, yenlu, leong, soh, kelvin and jeck for attending this low cost party. Oh..not to miss my 'askar' (tyng,baby & pot)for helping on the special task. Without you all, the party must be quite a mess. And lastly thanks for the regards thru SMSes : yeu, asa, slow, sheryl, henry, hanni(on the effort of getting to mentakab--> she requested me to mention this), roy, hung, yienchong, chunwei, meishuet, lee, lamswee, chew, jason, ly and wei and along for the phone call and testi...

P/s: this post arrives so late due to my careless-ness of forgetting to bring back this writting pad to cyber at the start of sem2. shudnt be any inconvenient for anyone rite?

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Have a good laugh

Disclaimer: This material is not suitable for children under 18 years old


A mother was very concerned that her middle-
aged
son has not shown the slightest indication of
getting married.

So one day she called him over to her house.

The son came home from work, grudgingly. Upon
arriving, he found that his mother had gathered a
few beautiful ladies at the house for him to choose
as his future bride.

The first one was a well-endowed telephonist-
cum-
receptionist. He immediately commented
that: "Aiyaa... mother, they always say....
PLEASE HOLD ON, HOLD ON....."

The second nominee was a leggy secretary. She
was also rejected.

Reason being: "Aiyaa... mother, this one aaa...,
secretary always fond of saying "PLEASE SLOW
DOWN, SLOW DOWN...."

By this time, the mother is nearing frustration. She
called a sweet but plain-looking teacher.

The son suddenly agreed!!

The mother was surprised and asked: "Why this
one? The earlier two were a lot more better
looking!" He replied: "Teachers aaa.... teachers
vely good, vely good, always say: PLEASE
REPEAT, DO IT AGAIN, I Want it done 10
times.... SOME MORE, SOME MORE..!"

Now come the small naughty hero. Her youngest
son (10 years old), was listening quietly all this
while at the other end of the room.

Suddenly, he shouted "Brother.... female mini bus
conductor more better laa.... they always
say..."NAIK CEPAT, NAIK CEPAT... MASUK,
MASUK.... MASUK LAGI, DALAM LAGI... DALAM
LAGILAAAAH, MASUK
BELAKANG....BELAKANG LAGI, BELAKANG
BANYAK KOSONG!..........."

The mother fainted....

post it to everyone so that they can laugh out
loud!!!!

from friendster as well

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blog again

This is what i found while browsing thru friendster buletin....I am just too free during sunday night..hehe....seemed like i am only active during weekend. Not bad also, at least i can do a bit revision during weekend if i am not back to my hometown.

1.Last place u have been to:
malacca(a week ago), cyberia mini mart(buy bread)

2. you are:
esther lei

3. They say you are:
kerbau(i'm not le) , cool(i am not as well)

4. Yesterday:
wake up quite late,do some gym, go alamanda and cook dinner

5. Last person who texted you?
hanni (on digital systen stuff)

6. Last person you called?
dad (asking whether i goin back)

7. Last name in your received calls?
bzai

8. How old are you?
21

9. What music is playing?
only sound of fan and mayb bu de bu ai from afar(dunno whose house)

10. Last thing you drank?
plain water, alright...nutrigen susu flavor

11. Last thing you bought for yourself:
food consider as thing or not? canvas shoe from pyramid

12. You want to:
finish my assignment and go out for anything

13. You really like:
sleeping and eating good food

14. You have a crush on:
somebody who are tall, wif nice teeth, and nice attitude towards life

15. You really hate:
ppl betrying me. and ppl that doesnt content with what they already have(sometimes i jus hate myself....kekekeke)

16. Who is the last person you talked to online?
wck_84 (on assignment stuff)

HAVE YOU EVER:

1. got wasted?
dont understand...mayb i wasted lotsa of my time

2. ran away?
yeah...i ran from school while in secondary..i miss the time so much

4. had ur heart broken?
of course....

5. cried when someone died?
not yet

6. broken a bone?
no

7. cried in school?
yeah.......in primary....i was so terrific wif alll the ppl in the 1st week of school

WHO'S:

1. your good luck charm?
not sure....

2. person u hate most?
this wil hurt ppl..cant tell

3. makes u laugh d most?
all my close fren..while they making those stupid thing

4. makes u smile?
all the one's in the memory

5. has a crush on u?
no one

DO YOU:

1. sit by the phone waiting for a call all night?
yeah....previously

2. chat online?
yes...very yes

3. save emails?
yes..some interesting stuff

4. wish u were someone else?
i need to think this properly....i fins wif myself at this moment...mayb i wish to be a better me

5. cry in front of friends?
no!!

SO:

1. do you get jealous easily?
not sure, mayb not

2. what have u been doing these past few days?
nothing much

3. what are you thinking about now?
wu liao...wonderin who create tis..can let time pass

4. what did you do last night?
did some dinner with kath

5. what did you last say to a friend last night?
good night(to slow
)
6. when will you marry?
right after i am stable with the One

7. When did u last receive a gift?
my bday gua...


8. when did you last drink alcoholic beverages?
2 weeks ago...vsop(not really nice)

9. what was your greatest bet ever made?
a few ringgit during cny
oh no....i play much more in between...


10. is all fair in love?
no

11. most romantic words?
rose, promise me you will never die no matter what happen(quote from titanic, that is lame)


12. would you give up your career for love?
dunno

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started to miss you every second

I started to miss you. I miss the every minutes and second you are by my side. I regretted never treat you, i am sorry for the stratch on your heart. I am careless. I forgot that you are the one that is always be with me no matter rain or cold night. You show me that the day is sometimes long and sometimws short as well. How come i never realize the moment i lost you. I promised if you are back i will never get any one to replace you. Please back...my dear Carlo..


*sobsob*
My C.R watch was lost last night when i was in sunway pyramid. Should i say old one never goes, new one never came but.....i still much in love with it. Right now, i am trying to accept the fact that I had lost it whenever i was out. I just cant adjust my brain not to look at my left wrist when i want to know the time of the day. I need to get a new one, a new cheap one this time. I just cant afford to lost another one again.


Details:

Name: Carlo Rino
Aged: approximate 6 months old
Appearance : Silver color with grey face and silver needle. Scratches on top left.
Born place: Mid valley, Kuala Lumpur
Time of Missing:around 9.30pm
Date of missing:29 Dec 2005
Place of missing: The distance between Romp to GSC or between GSc to Walk In
Photograph: None(to which i regret)

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bravo!!! student id!

it seems unbelieveable i am here to blog again and it is mostly imposibble that i was fully awake when it is only 7.30am. OMG i had jus slept for 4 hrs only. But seemed like dimsum breakfast was so much effective for waking up early. so, the 1st trip we went is to the golf resort, which i already forgotten the name. Then we step our foot on Water city resort. What a great water city. I shall attach the photo here as well. And i must must must suggest to ah too to bring us(the whole family) to have a vacation there. *grin* i guess this is the 1st ever water city apartment available in m'sia. I come together with fish ponds, water park, kayaking, go-cart and basketball futsal court. That is a real wonderful place for our next trip, i guess. and the rates are reasonable as well. arrggghh....cant wait to have another trip at the spot..... then I visited Taman Mini Malaysia. The entry fees is quite expansive which is rm10, but with mmu student id, we manage to get in at RM4. That is not bad to become a student afterall, there are so much priviledge once we flash our student indentity card*wicked smile* But can i still use it when i am 30 years old *thinking*

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after a long way..

it had been a very long time since my last blog. Of course so many things happened in between. I always wanted to blog, as this has become my routine but my pc dont allow me. I was hacked by spyware, even spybot can make no different on it. So, there my lovely(can i say it is macho pc :p) pc gone, washed by ah jeck cd,by bzai. Maybe this is the only way to save it. Anyway i should report the current situation

Time: 1.21am
Location: Melaka
Mood: Tired but looking forward for great fun
On the air: Bu De Bu Ai (wilbert n xie zi)
Sitting on: cushion boss seat
Bad: was waiting almost all the day
-bus to transit
-transit(30 mins)
-when buying a can of justea at jusco(damn it)
Good:
- i am back in malacca again after 2 n half years
-attending PL bday party
-getting to know another circle of fren
-looking forward for 2molo great breakfast(what wil it be huh?)

Finally, lots of thanks to hanni for accompany me all the times. We did had a good laugh on that loud speaker *wicked smile* *lolz*

p/s: i will be blogging when i am back in cyber, hopefully....
if the line, computer and time is allowing

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Finally, somebody getting married among us

Counting when will one of my friends get married, maybe he, maybe she,maybe not, that must be still long way to go. But during the trimeaster break, guess what?.....I WAS INVITED TO A FRIEND WEDDING!!!! yeah.....finally dreams come true..the lucky person was Kelvin Hue, someone from my secondary school but..he is not the luckiest, because we are luckier than him because this is the first ever wedding among our friend. (perhaps we dont practice getting marry early) So, we(me,bzai,katt,jessy,yip n shukyuan) were invited to be "zi-mui". This is a fat chance of course to have fun on that gang of guys. We was really really excited. Katt jumped excitedly when we heard the horns sound coming nearer to our hotel(the bride room). *lolz*. Even ah kin prepared with singlet in case we want him to echo the strip off show. *winks* Then, we drove through the whole town with loud horn to make it greater. Even the red color of the traffic light cant stop our car from following the married couple Benz. Though this is an MBA(married by accident) case, I can felt the happiness of the face of the bride. Perhaps this is a new trend for nowadays youngerster to proceed to another stage of life. If not, most singles might be ended up getting married later in their life. I know it is kolot to say this, any how I still would to wish kelvin and meiling live happily ever after...


here it comes the photo(though it is 3 weeks after the exact blog)

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pre-genting trip

here I am, on 8th october, in cyber, going to overnight before going to genting. Why genting? I mean again? I also dont know. Looked like we had some investment there and we need to see how it is developing constantly. Is it a brilliant respone? I dont even remember since when I had been so familiar to genting. Maybe I had the real fate with Mr goh tong.Well, he is very very rich indeed. Guess that not really much ladies will reject of becoming his mistress. Arrgghhh.....I dont need this of course, and I am just not that lucky one. Looking forward for the coming night, at apartment ria(jessy had booked n pay for it earlier). What the funniest thing is that we were like having a pre-genting trip here, in cyberia. We all were taking one bag each while boarding the lift..hehe....

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McD October Fruit Pet

Ladies and gentlemen,
Take a look at the picture below. Have a guess of what is it...

no doubt, you are right. It is the green apple box that you usually come across in the pasar malam. But, if you notice the lower left corner of the picture you might question, since when has McD come out with its own green apples? Green apples? Fast food? They is no way that they are related to each other! Here it goes to the unsolved question.....

Kindly represent......

Green Apple Cinnamoroll of Mc D

McD has come out a series of fruit pet for the month of October. This adorable small toys are available at only RM3.99 at any Mc Donald outlets on the month of October. Have a box of your favourite food pet now, ranging from different colors. And yes, this Green Apple Cinnamonroll is mine!



another picture of my litttle pet

Saw the only green apples on the Cinnamonroll head?

Disclaimer: This post is for private use only. Not related to any publication or promotion issue of any company

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Differential equation

Should I say I that I have good memory. I dont think so. I am real bad in maths. But, anyhow some strange equations keep flashing on my mind. It is the great differential equation(i guess).

Properties: A point is differentiable if it is continuous from that point to the left and from that point to right on a domain axis. If f is not continuous at a, we say f is discontinuous at a, or f has a discontinuity at a.

The Question:
1)Is it still differentiable at the same point after a time or
frequency shift?
2)Is it still differentiable if there is a jump on that point?
3)How if the funtion is no longer a function of two plain
variable of X and Y, but it is involving an arbitrary variable
of Z?

Fact: F(t) is obviously not differentiable at the instantenous of t.

At least I did not return all my maths to the lecture *wink*

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click on the link

Now, it is an end to the torturing four consecutive days of final exam. Anyway, it is not the real end of final exam yet as I still have another last paper to go. At least I have a day off, I mean without notes and tutorial to worry about. I had actually packed my notes of the previous paper into one big pile.*gigs* I just cant wait for the last paper to end.Normally i packed my notes after the last paper. But I was thinking why not I packed it up right now, I am not busy afterall. As usual, my pile of notes is thicker than a new pile of Double A A4 paper. This is not good for environment, I have no choice. That is student; notes,slides,calculation and tutorial, A4 papers are the medium of our learning process. Unless I didnt print notes. I am just not that multimedia people. You know, in the sense of Multimedia University, everything should be conducted multimedia-ly. As a MMU student, it is a shame that I did not fully utilise the facilities for online learning system. I run no far from traditional method of learning except for i downloaded the notes and I print it out. A big applause for FinePrint founder for saving my A4 paper and inks. Slides printed out by FinePrint are obviously bigger in size and uses lesser of space.*thumbs up*. Well, back to my 2inches thick notes, I am still wondering whether to keep it or left in my wardbode. Perhaps I till need it for supp in case in failed in any subject, touch wood. Hopefully, I will pass either it is with flying colours or not. I do not want to take supp. Ok well back to my purpose of blogging today. I want to add link to my blog.*wink*. I had just learnt a bit of HTML last two night. Here the link. Quite funny one. Hope that it works here.
have a click here

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intro to html

While doing revision on ecp, i found out i like doin html. It is not that tough at all. It is much simpler than programming. I tell myself to learn more about it during break. Goin to come out with a more advance layout for my blog. ecp is not that boring afterall.At least i got to know a bit about html.But it is still long way to learn it. Anyway, this is the first day of final exam. another tough week to go before saying *cheers* for holiday

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25 sept 2004

This is 12.05am. Ooo.....i am just sensitive to these kind of dates. It is another 24 hours to go before my final. EPM, what a headache. Wondering will anyone countdown for that as me..hehe....i am crazy. i am just little bit nervous..no....is a lot nervous...yes...25 sept...a date to remember..aiks.......better back to epm ....

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rintihan exam week

As usual, once in a sem, this bad feeling comes again. Again, i regretted what i had done and what i had not done. Regretted not having full attendance to lecture let alone not paying full attention during classes. Arghh.....study week is always like this. Seemed like i had never had a tension-less study week. Guess this is the process of life. This time it is four consecutive days with each subject a day. EPM, ECP,ETM followed by BHM. Sleepless nights are to begin. I had no confident at all on these subject, but what to do? I have no choice except to do whatever i can in this last few days.Just wish that the question is not too hard. Shyan just smsed me asking any of my friend going to Genting to witness the 2nd malaysian idol. I dont think anyone i know will be goin. None of my friends are malaysian idol craze though. Moreover the quality of this season is not that fantastic. They are good but there are not what i expected. allright, back to my exam mood. I had done the more daring things again. I went for steamboat last night with jessy,too n sn. OMG i never did that before. Anywhere, really had a nice time being with you all. You all gave me the warmth i needed the most during this tension week. Besides, i wasted whole noon playing table tennis and badminton. That was crazy but great game indeed. No one to be blame because i am the one suggest of playing. ok well, back to by work, for my dad n mum and myself! jia you jia you jia you~(childish)

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You asked is there?
I said I dont felt
You said you felt a bit
I said I dont think so
You said I will feel it
Again I say no

You said...
It is not smooth
I said...
That is all right
You said...
I will felt bad soon
You said...
time and metres does matter

But I thought
I can settle
I thought
There is no problem
I thought
Love is everything
I thought
Things are like that
But you proved
I doesnt make sense

You didnt say
You wanna leave
You never say
You will stay
You never say
I love you
Because you said
you care
I felt
All this is fine
But you felt
This is not complete

**Qouted from some where dated 10 October

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some of the foods *yummy*

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ah yip with a big potential winning the rejoice rambut lurus model search...hehe

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ah yip again posing with her hotdogs

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some of the participant (from left bzai,jeck,leong n shukyuan)

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ah too n ah shan busying with the chicken wings

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satay man~the best satay in mentakab..come come come

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i am the organizer , and the co-organizer my sis n bro

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ladies in da house say yeah....yeahhhhhhh

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yeah ...tanglung activity after bbq session

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i had the most special tanglung with cartoon on it...yeah yeah

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this is how 21 year old kiddo post with tanglung

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all the participant

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eat eat eat~ yeah

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ladies sayssss cheerrss...

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denggi ar???

I was awaken by the knocks of the door. Assuming it was from another door, i closed back my eyes. I was just tired to answer the door. Again, the knocking sound came again.Ooo....who the hell is that. Dont disturb my sleep ok. ok...well, let see what you want. It was jolyn, in her light green shirt. Maybe she wanted something from my room, ok. I just left her in front the door and went to my bed and dozed off. In half asleep, i heard only some of her words. Dont really remember what she said, sn, mum? i dont know. As i close my eyes, suddenly i heard my mum ask me to phone back. OMG, what happened this early morning. I grab my hp, switch it on, it was only 9.30 am. Press my mum office contact, in a few second, i got mum voice on the other end. "so,mum, anything happen?" "it is about u la, i suspect u kena denggi, fast fast come back" "hah, want meh? i wan study here o, i got no fever liao" "u come back la, denggi is like that de, at least somebody will look after u if u are hospitalize" "but my revision" "u bring back all your notes la, i dont know when u will be alright" "ok ok...i pack my thing then i go home la." So, i gather up all my notes in a file, then i packed some clothes and jerry send me to transit. i know i will be ok. i am tough [those was i had blogged before i went home, but as u can see it is not in my blog due to the line problem. so i write it again]

As i reach home, shyan come to pick me. I showed my hand n legs to my mum. My mum very confirm it is denggi. But i felt really healthly, to compare to last few days. Even pot said my feet looked scary. I cant do nothing by the time i reach home, it is already late noon, and the hospital already closed. So, i just went yamcha with frens, looked like everyone is back this weekend. and then they decided to bbq at my house since my sis had been preparing one for her frens. Then i just joined la..haha....but what the heck, i am a sick person with big probability of denggi, but still i am organizing bbq. I am really daring. So, with the last minute decision, off we went to buy stuff for tonight bbq.

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there are 2 suns

Last night conversation with sn
Me:(seriously)eii...u got heard from ppl ar, it is said that there is
2 sun in the universe
SN :why?
Me: u no hear meh? tat is why cyber so hot ma. both sun oso shine in
cyber.
SN :this world only got one sun
Me :(giggle) nole....i really read in the star. U dont bliv u go online see.
real de.

inside MAP5530

SN : you all know ar, got one ppl say cyber gogt 2 sun le. thats y so heat.
she ask me search the star tim...siaw one..
Me :real de le...(giggle)
SN :i keep telling her there is one sun only in this world
Jessy: yelo, u didnt study history one meh? last time got one ppl shoots
all the sun d ma. Left this one here for us only
Too: where got? got in history meh? that is tales le...
car: hahaahhaahhahahaahhhahhahahahhahahahahhaahah

today before too,jessy n sn back we saw a fire brigade passed by. wondering where it gone. someone commit suicide again?sudd i got an sms from sn saying

" Wei. the fireman come cyber
shoot the 2nd sun so later not
so hot dy"

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what sound is that?

this is monday noon, planning not to attend the classes since bar list is already out. And the most important point is i am not feeling well. My head was like spinning. And frequently i can heard wind blowing pass through my ears. Some sort of the sound when i spin in the Genting spinner. That is strange, i had never encounter this before. When i try to stand up i felt that i am goin collapse.Lucky i still manage to blog. Thanks a lot to jessie n leemin for the een assgnment q4. and thanks many many to pl. U indeed are my saviour. u r the hero...hehe...gin to have a nap soon....hope everythings get well when i get up..

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scorpion

i am actually quite tired for blogging. But suddenly some words flashed through my brain "Scorpions tends not to revealing themselve" how true is it? But i felt this is quite accurate on me. I dont know why? i tend to keep everything for myself, even my expression. I just never reveal 100% of my feeling towards anything, let alone relationship.The inner self of me is working so hard to hide everything from the people around me. Even my best best friend never had known the whole me. Maybe a stranger will knew more about me than everyone i know. I am just weird. Is it the pride is keeping me for not being open in the sense of sharing. Sometimes i just nod when the inside of me say hell NO....thing should not be that complicated i know. Ya, i know lots of thing, especially the rational theory, but all times, i have to chance to practic it. In no time, theory will just become ashes, reform with the air and again it came back to the 'nothing' origin.

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night outing in sunny zai racecar

yes....today is merdeka..our 48th national day.
Having class and lab for the whole day really make me felt exhausted. There should be 4 hours for rest in between but i had fully utilised it to complete my delayed COM1 report. I am just another last minute lazy bum. By the time i reach home, it was already almost 7pm. While watching hk drama on the television, i cooked some porridge for dinner. Then i decided to go for a swim, so i only manage to have to dinner after the swim. Not really enjoying the swimming session as there was quite a number of peoples swimming there. Swimming in crowd is just a no fun. Moreover, the pool is without the wall light. That was scary, though some of the light from the poolside still manage to shine on the pool, i still felt of swimming in murky water. oh ya, we went for the sauna as well for the first time. We just dont know the procedure of using it. We were not sure to bath before it or what. We just got in blurry and enjoyed the hot temperature inside. hmm...overall, not bad. Worth for a second try. hehe.
When i got home, they all decided to go mcD. Yeah, mcD, so sorry for my pot of porridge, maybe i will reboil it tomorrow for lunch. This is the first time i was having so much of food in McD. Imagine that how the four of us,(sn,jessy,too) had our big big meal. Our big big meal consists of

i) coke(large) x 3
ii)fries(large) x 3
iii)fillet o fish x 2
iv)Mc Nuggets(L) x 3
v)Mc Nuggets(M) x 1
vi)double cheese x 1
vii)Mc chicken x 1 (foc)
viii)Mc Flurry x 1

the total is 4 burgers plus 22 pieces of nuggets...but believe me, four of us manage to finish it all.Perhaps we have a bull stomach.*gigs*What a wholeheart-full meal. By the time we un-stick our butt from mc D was already 11.30pm, which means that we failed to countdown in mcD.
On the way back to cyber, we saw unfamiliar situation of so many cars in the quiet cyber road. That is weird, all the car was like heading to putrajaya. We guess that there is a merdeka celebration in putrajaya. Yes, we followed all those cars with a great hope that there will be celebration in putrajaya. There is more and more car on the pathway to putrajayya, we are assured there is something there. When we reach the lake there, our eagerness did reward us. We saw lots of car was lining by the roadside. Even some of them stop the engine and came out from their car with all their eyes on the opposite side of the road, to the pejabat kerajan on the hill or maybe toward the mosque quite far away. So this proved our initial guess was true. Viewing this, too stop his car by the roadside also. And quickly we got down from the car and wait for it, the firework if we are not wrong since the first prediction. More and more cars came, this make us felt even more excited as there will be a real great firework to be held. We waited until the short and the long needle of the clock touched the number 12. Nothing happened though except the light on the pejabat kerajaan was turned off, ready for firework perhaps.Ten minutes passed, not even a glimpse of firework was shown. Feeling dissapointed, too was bout to leave. Most of the car was gone because of no a single glimpse of firework is showing. But jessy n i still believe there will be a great one. We waited patiently without any attempt to leave. But anyway we are still blaming on the kedekut government, because of pouring cool water on our excitement. Blaming that their officer eaten our taxes instead of buying the firework. Haha....what a childish mind of complaining we had. Then guess it was already 15 minutes pass 12 am, we heard the first sound of exploding. yes yes yesss.....that is firework from afar, near the bridge. Jessy and i was like those budak kampung screaming on the firework, admiring how outstanding is was. With the color of blue, red,purple, yellow, and my favourite green. It was so so so nice, no it is not nice it is so wonderfulll.......Felt so lucky to had coincidently view this firework. The point is we do not need to squeeze with crowds yet we are viewing the same wonderful event. This will be the best merdeka ever, going to memorize it forever. After the 5 minutes wonderful scene, our activity that night is going to an end. But................
With the still exciting-ness on each of us, jessy gone crazy for satay when we saw the signboard to kajang. So, off we go to kajang!!!! after some wrong path, we finally reached the double storey satay house near the kajang stadium. That was a real happening spot of satay i guess, decorated mainly with old bicyle and tricycle and of course colourful light bulbs. As usual, we want to have it to the fullest, so we went for upstair since that looked cool. haha. eventhough we need to wait, we are still happy, impact of the firework. The environment is not bad but the satay does not taste as good as the one i had in the other satay stall. Maybe because too much of order causing the satay to be more into commercial, i guess they only heat it when the customer place an order. But the enviroment *thumbs up* . seemed like we forgotten the big meal we had in mc D one hour ago. We were just another hungry ghosts....
The is not our end of the day yet. Santa granted our wish when he lead sunny zai to cheras.....yeah off to 'little genting' in cheras...hehehe.....so glad with it. Thanks a lot to Too to be the santa claus, granting our wish to eat satay in kajang and having a visit to the famourslittle genting. I still remembered dad bring all of us to that place few years back. Ohhh...that is lots year back, guess that i am still in standard 4 or 5. We, the monkeys was so happy when dad brought us there in a white van with our cousins. Memories is still a memories and just now i was there with my dear frens, viewing all of the part of kl.....except cyberjaya(i guess)hehe....thanks too, jessy n sn of bringing so much of excitement today.too, u r just another robin hood today.....nono..that is sunny hood.....hehe.....HAppY MeRdeKa!!!

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miss home in a suddden

matlab=a useful tool. Yeah, i agree with this statement but learning it is so hard for me. It just took too much of time for me just to figure out a little things.*sighz* thanks for jessie sharing the matlab code for the lab tomorrow. At least i will know how to start it tomorrow, lab session will be easier, i hope.
reminder:
- com1 report havent done
-pe2 report
-return book to library
-bhm assignment
-etm assignment
oh, i begin to felt panic with the tones of task to do
sn said they might be out tommorow night to celeb merdeka. Most probably i not going to join. I know that will be fun, but the price of liquor is bothering me. And the party is expected to be too crowd, means that, stick closely to each other, that is no fun. Sometimes i just more into hanging around peacefully. Maybe just a drink in mamak or other more casual place. I felt that just sit down with a bunch of friend and borak endlessly make me to be more like myself. Is it because of his previous opinion on clubbing? I dont know, his statement on clubbing is not supporting on the previous one. which one is more into his real meaning?
arghh....i should be bothered by that anymore... i am still still myself, even it is without his shadow on my way. afterall, he is not influencing me either.
so, the epm test is over, but piles of assignment is waiting. Oh ya, really thanks to anu for doing the ecp project. Shame on me that i have chance to touch that question before she completed it all by herself. and the lab session tomorrow, will be a head-scratching one.
how i wish to go home tomorrow. Heard pot said, "po to" will start in my housing area tomorrow. This is the first time i guess i am missing the show. Though it is not really a nice show, just felt that it is already my routine to be a part of it every year. The scene that i was helping my dad selling tou fu fa is still fresh in my mind even it is already one year. MMU new scedule is to be blame for unable to join the festival. Oooooo..i figured out why mum suddenly called me, she must be expecting me to go home for "po to" and merdeka celebration. I was there every year during these events. And moon cake festival, i miss the taste of lotus seed mooncake with yellow yoke. yummy.....once in a year i get to have mooncake. Pandan lotus seed is the best as well as shanghai one...wondering when is the next time i will be at home. At least, i need to submit the bhm assignment first. i miss u, mum n dad.

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how real is it?

what is all this. Does these implies what am i worrying recently. Is it the negative side of my mind that i always doesnt want to face? Is it a reflection on what is happening at me from the other perspective that i view on my real life. I dont know. Theory said it might be so. But pratically i hope that i had just been thinking too much. Life is just like a stage, we are planning and predicting, but none of us can predict it hundred percent accurately. Why was it i am always in rush. Of getting train, geting home, even on a bicycle. I always felt i am still far from the destination. A very very far journey and i am always run out of time. Sometimes, i felt funny on this but most of the time i keep telling myself not to worry as that is not true. does other felt the same thing? and there is once i never doubt why is him there. Rationally, this cannot be. Am i sure i want to hold his hand? and the song....how come this happen in such a sequence. I dont know but i bliv.....there is something related, maybe this is not a suitable time for me to figured out. Perhaps i will know it one day or shall it fade with the sand on the glass hour?

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the cave

it is 2.32 am of 27 august. A very quiet sat morning, seemed like everyone had got home. Anyway, i had just back from movie 'the cave'. Really a nice movie as recommended by sn. As usual, we failed to book the ticket online, so we tend to collect the released booking ticket that others never collect. tis time, it was me, asa, jerry n jason. asa did always make things to be so interesting. both of us was laughing at the stranger sitting beside me even the show was not started yet.then asa shouted excitingly during some part of the show*claps*she did really enjoy the movie..ahaha.... i will never forget this day, this is what i told her after the show.yes, that is 26 july, after bhm test.

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tv news announce that the index of putrajaya touches 204which mean cyberjaya as well is in critical region. Due to this, mmu is giving two days leave to us.*hooray* this means that the epm and basic law test will be postponed since thu n fri is holiday. I know i should not be misuse this holiday. But i am really not in the steady state to face test. Any,way the wheather is really bad. Haze was everywhere. Mum even says klang area the index exceed 400. That is scary man.200 in mmu already make me felt uncomfortable.Guess this is once of the full moon mmu have this extra holidays for us. I shall fully utilise this extra two days to prepare for een test. but anyway i am going to relax a bit tonight since i had been study for 2 days. hope that i will have more than enough time for the replacement test of that two subject. Planning going home tomorrow. But the condition in mtk also not so good. There is quite hot recently and a bit polluted by haze. Now only a heavy rain will sttop this hazy condition..

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partially over

Finally it is partially over, the midterm test and lab. Previous week was really a challenging one. Perhaps this is because this is the first test after such long trimester break. ETM paper, not really a hard one, just that i had not finely prepared for it. Until now, i am already in the 3rd year, i had never really deeply concentrate in my enginering studies. I just love to loaf around. I know that is not good , but i just never really get commited in the studies. I might regret one day, i know. Anyway, it is partially over. I had a few more day to rest before i get started with the other four subject. Oh no, i hope i can complete at least half of the revision before i am back to cyber after the trimester break.
ok, back to "what happened today". Feeling a bit relief after last night test, today i woke up with urge to go for skwong class. Sometimes, i just enjoy attending 8 am class especially that is a good lecturer. Till now, i still never miss a single class. Afterall, today class is until 10am only, 9.30 am to be exact because today ecp class, the lecturer release us earlier than usual *yeah yeah*. But too bad i still have a dued date lab report to rush.

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it is 11.16pm, i had just back from sunway lagoon. Felt really exhausted after a few hours playing in water. Three slides, flying carpet, pouring pail and sunway bridge; no problem to me. I just love to try those challenging outdoor activity. hehe. I just love to play with water. I guess i love water since i was toddler. I still remember the pic i took at the beach when i was kids. I am ever exicted to get to beach or pool, anything as it is a deal with water. after we had the pizza dinner, we went for a movie. Quite a boring movie, luckily i manage not to fall in sleep during the movie. It was so weird to watch movie in a empty cinema. The total of ppl watching that movie is jus slightly more than 20 only. phew..... so do the movie war of the world, iwatch wif sheryl at mines, so small cinema, with only 8 rows of seat; and it is not full!!!!! tyng started to use my 2266. wonderin anyone will contact me thru that no. it is the time to study again, the etm test is coming next wed....oh no....i just hate test!



*the is the first day i gone thru without thinking of him, afterall he is just not that important...not too late to realize now perhaps....

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thursday, a day of food...i am going to gain weight again. It is crazy when i think back. After rejected ah too to had dinner in Penang house because of the expansive fod there, i began to plan what to eat tonight. Sardine sandwich; bread is only for breakfast, fried rice;i have no meat to cook and i had just taken it yesterday lunch, maggie; a big no no, i had just taken it this noon...then i came across with porridge, yes that is right, since i am not so comfortable with my throat. So i decided to cook some porridge. I went to the kitchen and get a tin of sardin, thinking a while what should i eat with the porridge. I get the rice, washed it, then start boiling it. While waiting the porridge to be allright to serve. I searched in the frigde for the available food for my dinner. There is no much choice for which finally i took out some mixed bean for defroze. Then after my porridge is ready only i decided to follow cc out to have dinner with slow n sheryl. It is a long time i never had dinner with them already. So, i was out with cc car heading to sk hakka village. after ordering 3 dishes which included chicken, bean curd and vege, we started to look around on the other table. Wow, the table next to us was having crab. It was so yummy....suddenly i miss the crab at the grill fish stall in temerloh. then came our dishes, a really nice and awesome meal indeed. We were stomach satisfied ast he dishes there were served in a quite large portion. After paying for the bill, off we go to tapow for the other housemate. When i reached cyber, i tried solve some problem for jerry. Too bad i cant help him much, i only know to do a very small bit in his assgn. Then i heard some weird noise from which i guess came from under my bed. Wondering i might perasan, then i continue with the maths question. Then again i heard that noise, wondering what sound is that. This time it is much longer. heard like my hp vibration sound but my hp is right in front of me...and i am very sure that my hp doesnt sound so soft. The sound is still there, i look at my hp. and i grab it. Eh, it was vibrating. Then only i knew the previous sound came from my hp. Written shernee on the hp, i press on the green button. Over the line, i heard sn familiar sound, asking me out for mcD. Besides was yeu shouting me to out for ice cream, then again i was out for food. haveng strawberry sundae as dessert, we sat at mcD until 12.30am. another happning yamcha spot for us with unlimited soft drink. we refill for three times, too evevn suggest we bring back the cup and refill it the other day. what a silly joke. hehehee.....now i started to worry bout to the sugar content in that drink...i felt that i am loving soft drinks nowadays, thank to the influence of sn,too,jerry n jason. I got to change, soft drink is bad for me i know...but i still like it. Maybe this is the youngster habit...aiii....

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the spring

the spring is still there, guess it is the second day it had been here. It is really a very beautiful scenery, especially under the morning 9 am sun. The pink flower all over the tree, as the tree is not a tree, but is a tree of flower. And when the wind blow, some of the flower might fall. And the fallen flower on the grass. It is just beautiful. and of course romantic too...hopefully the flowers is still there. This few hours rains might ruin the perfect scenery, leaving brownish old leaf and unfresh color of flower onm the floor. That is the campus summer, too short but that make it special. because no one is going to appreciate it if the flowers bloom everydays. Only when it is once a year, it will be attached to the memory of our brain.

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the little one that had been taken away

never in my life
i felt this sorrow
i felt regret
i felt heartbreak
everytime i speak your name
i still remember
how u greet me
every each time i am home
except that noon
i will never forget
the way your litlle body
brushed through my feet
the way you lick my toe
the way you run
when i said"let go out"
and the way
you sprang to the dining table
when we shout"let's eat"
i really miss
miss the time
when u come and greet me
every each time i came down from the stair
miss the moment
when you pretend
when u want us to feed
maybe this is the way
god want to be the best for you
perhaps
he just love you too much
to take u away from us
let him reborn u to a better place
where the man in luck
bring give you happiness
take care of you intensively
if time can turn back
i choose to have you back
back to my home
and i promise i will
be the one never let u to go away

**specially dedicated for my little vodka. May him reborn to the best place in the universe.

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It had been more than two months i had never log in here. A lots of thing happened between the previous post.
First of all, i gained unexpected experience from working in genting. Never in my life i had ever thought of having this chancce to work in genting, since my trimester break is always last the longest for 3 weeks. Working in karaoke really teach me a lot what is service. Everything should be done in good manner. Every little thing need to be done with a smiling face even i dont felt to smile. And of course sometimes the days just does not go well. I praticed to say "welcome" even though my heart says "u all better get lost from here". Life is like that. Sometimes u like the day while sometimes u dont. Whether u like it or not, at the end of the day u will realize that life still goes on. 24 hour a day is still 24 hours. There is no more or less. Initially things does not really work well because i was distributed to group C, the worst group there. Even wilson realize that i am unhappy with the distribution although i already expected the worst since before i am up in genting. that time, i am just thinking to finish the 2 months without having any complication. days passes, i found that group is not that bad afterall, they are just those senior whom had been working there for more than a year. Their thinking is just slighly different than other. At least, vanesse is not that action as he looked. anyway, it is not bad to work with the group--. thanks for them for guiding me too-->mavis,mandy,vannese,leong,ah di,mandy,ld and max. On the other group, i will not forget chin kok fei,alan,laysee,ahqin,cheechun,siewling,tansan,joe,ah feng,alvin and many more that i already forgotten their name.

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today is the last day to be in cyber...2 months holiday coming soon.Thatmeans that I might not be log in here for the coming 2 months. Finally i gone through all the papers: tech com,maths,control,micoE and datacom. Hopefully taht i will pass with flying colors. Actualy i should not be here, i should now in genting...but i postponed it. So far, i havent regret on that decision. At least I earned a steamboat, a shoping trip with hanni(this is the fist time we shop together, i really felt so good bout it....promise that there will be second time),i sleep a lot(this is so so so great)....really a lot,i tasted the bak kut teh in Sk and i got myself wangleehom 'xing zhong de ri yue'. Too bad i am unabe to attend his autograph session.
The coming trimester will be the longest i guess. Bzai will not be around even weekdays for one trimester. So do ly n jason. That's life, sometimes we just need to practice seperation. Means that no people will be doing silly thing again next trimester....hmmmm...lucky i am not alone, sn wil still be here, too n see oso wil be here. But i guess there are still some missing part. I will appreciate what we had done this trimester! Oh ya. i notice that i earned another frenship with ly,jason and jerry this trimester. They are just simply crazy, which meke us a strong team...heheh....yamcha team!!
well, it is time to get ready to go home. Mun n Dad must be missing me a lot because they called twice yesterday. ciaozzzz

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Another two days to go, but i felt I had use up all my fuel. I cant focus for a long time. My mind fly away everytime i sat down more than 20minutes. By this moment, I really need concentration. But my heart does not want to hear to my mind. It keep wander, from the very long time ago, that i dont even know the exact time, to few weeks ago, to few days ago, yesterday, this morning, tomorrow, next week, next trimester,next year.....Perhaps that is Scorpian. Sometimes I felt that i rather to lie on my bed and take no concern with everything that happened. No history, no questioning, no reasoning, considering, no decicioning ang totally no future planning. But that is not living. marlov pyramid, food, air, security......i have it all but still need concentration. Just for these two days....i just want to borrow...


**stress really make a big impact on everyday living. over-stress is just too bad for living.

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I am enough with that. I get nothing eventhough I had given my best. Fatal. That is the only word to describe what is in my mind. Who says "xi wang zai ren jian?"That is bullshit. It is faith that close the path. Faith does not want me to follow that path. Will Him open another door for me? Everyone says He will, but again i felt i am diagnosed fatal in that. No cure, no medicine, no breath, no a cm cube of oxygen. That defined fatal. Is that what comes round goes round? Is that a lesson for me from the previous attitude? This lesson is just too expansive and time consuming indeed.

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There are a few more days to go before final examination. Felt that I am changing on the way i do my revision. I felt I am less tension than previous semester. I never go to library this trimester. This is a good thing or bad one? I wonder, i will know it from the result of course. Am I too relaxing this time? I guess not, I hope I am not careless in that again. I just do not like to compare to other people. I am myself and I have my own way to manage myself. I do not think anyone else is able to influence me. I am more into individual. Perhaps this is not really a good habit. ...Is It because I am afraid I am too lag to compare with others? Perhaps....
If to compare individualistic, I am not somebody that never think behalf of other people. Most of the time I am considering from all the sides, I try not to offend everyone. But in reality, it is impossible to make it. In the end of the day, there is still people who got hurt. The is never everyone gain.....that is life, there is gain and there is of course lost. Maybe this balance the meaning of life. If there is not tears, there should be no laughther at the same time.
On the other perspective, is it possible individualistic is some kind of carelessness in managing own attitude. But i guess we can control it. If there is no desire, there is no action. It is just as simple as that. It is on the decision whether we want to or not to. It is a unusual thing to certain people, but it is also a habit to other group of people. From want, it had become a need. The is no particular medicine for this disease, even a logic theoritically talk will not make a slight different. Only one thing can can the whole, it is lesson. A good lesson really will wake people up unless we, the people do not use to practice consciousness. If it is so, we will be forever in our own world, not to say other had wake up and make a step toward reality.

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yes, she was on stage. with a pink shirt. Holding the mic nervously, she started to sang. With applauses from us, she was back to normal. On that familiar song, she began to dance a bt. One by one the audience went to the stage, started to dance around her, she sang to her nicest voice. That is realy a very familiar songs to me, but i can not recognize which. Then, another guy approch her, with orange pink horizontal stripes shirt. They danced happily. But I am just watching down the stage. And who is that guy? There i recognize him, but not here. I just know that he was familiar with me. Perhaps i just saw his back. What the song is? Who that guy was? Why was them so familiar. Awake, i remembered my sms tones rang. Oh Shit, it was tat gal. What is this? Coincidently or the six sense?????

**sometime what already happen in the dreeam might happened again in real life, howewer, you will only notice it when it did really happens in real world. At that moment, you might felt that miracle did happen in some space of this world

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Last night went for movie at Mv wif bzai, jeck, too,kin n leong. The eye 10, not a bad movie. One of the actor is handsome too. This is the only horror movie that really make laugh a lot....but in fact the 10 ways of the ghost encounter are quite real. after the movie, went for yamcha n pool. What a long time didnt play pool, felt that my skill is not so good than before. Practice indeed make perfect. Wondering what is the cost of a pool table, plan to buy one and play at home when i am older. That if i am still like the game when i am older. hehe
Dad came to kl this morning wif pot. So glad that he really came to bring me monitor. And he brought a tv as a bonus...I luv you dad! and not to forget my lunch, although not expansive food, that showed my dad's love. yes, my dad love all of us, and i am sure he wants to provide everything that he can for five of us.

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it was well arrannged in the mind set. Words, one by one was uttered. The heart no longer pumping hard, check no longer blush and the eyes no longer blink. As man grow, man tends to tell more lie. What is the feelin of being-lied, even a small white lie will make trust that had be gained before vanish. One first lie lead to another one. Why is it people can never be honest. What is the meaning of cheating the rest while we cannot cheat ourselve. --to be cont--

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Finally finish the all assignments. Yesterday was really a bad one, now i believe there is really a series of unfortune events can happen together. First of all, the maths result really make me feel bad. Then when i purposely skipped class just to complete my control lab design assignment, i found that my pc cannot install MATLAb 7.0 properly. My day become worst when my cant reboot itself. And bzai pc went wrong also, her hard disk got crashed. I felt I cause it too even though i am not the main cause. It indeed indirectly related to me because her hard disk one crashed after i accidently off the power supply. While waiting my pc to recover, i really felt panic. Perhaps that is the lesson of not doing last minute work. And when my pc recovered, i found that the Matlab Cd is actually spoilt. GDI. and i seeking aroung only found that boon kit housemate have the cd. Thanks to him for the cd, it really helps. and really a lot lot thanks to PL, believe me two meals is not enough to thank you.
A lots of thing happened this period, what i long time i didnt blog here. oh ya, i got the part time in genting and the job starts from 12 april. Is it too fast? i afraid i will too rush, i should had not promise the HR to start so early. starting on 12 means that i dont have a single minute to rest after the last paper to rush to genting. Or i dont even to have a retake paper if something really bad happens again. Well, i need to put that question aside while i need to pick up for my revision.

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console yourself that it is truly not your fault
you have given your heart,
offered a soul,
it will be her loss
to turn you away

whatever u did,
the tears will never dry
and the heart will continue bleed
if u leave, it will be a fresh beginning
and another challenge
do u dare?

sure, the pain of betrayal
is hard to bear
Cry if you must,
but remember that
life does not end with a broken heart

Playing with love
is like playing with fire.
You get burnt and hurt,
more than anyone else in the game

**quote from stars mag

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the other moment
the wind whispered
beside the ears
saying something
some lines that
not to be heard
by the innocent sense
only and only one heard it
that was the heart
the heart does not
really heard it,
it felt it, and keep it
deep down it store it
for the future guidance
when the heart
once tell the sense
the lines were the
greatest cheater
the greatest liar
or maybe i wish
they only cheat
at some certain moment
certain time
and on certain soul


** that is a queue towards, that i am not jumping the queue. in the intersection, i was careless. i was pushed and i dropped. my knee was hurt by those small stones.i recover, i stand up and i queue with a small step toward again.

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Attending wedding in jinjang, Lung gor gor wedding. what a long time never attend wedding ceremony, cant even remember the last wedding. Anyway, there will be another very long time for the next wedding. Seemed everyone from the upper batch has formed their own family. I bet there is more than 5 years to go for members of my batch to get wed. Mum did a great job this afternoon. So proud of you Mum. Everyone was kind of so surprise to see Mum up the stage. *big applause* hahahahah.....i had done something unexpected too, that was just so ..so ..wondering where do i got the courage at the time. Perhaps because of the wine, arghhh....not to blame the wine...is me myself....I want it to be so I just do it. I hope I was not embrassing myself. Who cares, no one is bothering.
Downloaded ethereal, but still not sure about it's functioning. Got to refer back the notes as well. And the Pspice, that is the big trouble. Havent really complete my hand analysis.
Not to forget jessy brought cakes n some foods from her niece or nephew 1 month old celebration. Lucky ly n ren finish all the food, if not it will be wasted since sn and i of course not going to eat it. Anyway, i had eaten 2 pieces of cakes. i even request sn to bring me secret recipies cakes when she got married...*yeah yeah*

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After 7 oct, this is the 1st time i purposely wake up early just to prepare myself. What a nice meal to start the day, with my yummy honey stars in cold milk. I'm just loving it. *oh yes u did oh yes u did, shi nian, cong ni li kai de na ke qi,ye xue,zhe shi shen ming de mo li* I wish this time i will back with a different mood, with a great smile hanging on my face. Although this time is a totally different situation.

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it had been 2 days i am still awake at these hour. I was playing cards with henry all the day except lunch and dinner. It was like marathon card sessionman....cannot believe that i can play card for so long. Normally i got bored after a few games but not today. Done nothing for the assignment, that is too bad. I am wondering why do so much people find me to chat today??? is it everyone is so free and my Ym list today is strangely flood. Oh ya....i found someboday that enjoys thrill park, wish that my times square trip will succeed this time. It is very long time ago i had planned to explore the cosmos theme park. And the major reason i didnt go genting with slow they all is because no one is goin to theme park with me...besides mum n dad coming kl tomorrow. Mum must be complaining if i tell her i went genting jus to play before i go to the wedding. Moreover i will be going there again for part time interview. Ya, plan to make some money during my bonus 2 months of break, afterall i need to save up a bit for the flight ticket to slow home..hehe...tat is still too far. and the redang trip, seemed soundless, everyone had gone there i guess. Just leave Shyan, but i guess she wont go there with me. Bet tat he prefers to go wif her own fren. Anyway, if i really got a job, i will have no time for it too. Perhaps it is still early to plan for it.

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editted myself...nice color

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another one...look slim

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taken 11 march in room, taken a few shots on my own....*wasting time*

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it is 1.51am,saturday night. Again it had been a very long time i never do my blog here. I am just lazy. Just back from the movie A Series Of Unfortune Things; not really understand the movie but i just like it. The story line is not good but there is certain meaning deep beneath it. Looks like cartoon, but it is real movie, the setting of the movie is very nice, especially the scene of a small road between rows of trees or bushes in the shade of peace evening.
This weekend should be a very busy one, with the pile of assignment. Just the first part of een is giving enough trouble and not to say ecp project, i dont even started to read on that question. Anyway, there is no more lab session this trimester *relieve* . Attending lab should not be so stressful, but i just get nervous everytime i need to perform lab experiment. Since Alpha i was worrying my lab and of course the report. hmmm....tis noon DCC 2 alone is enough to prove that i am not well in pratical...gosh...what the hell Matlab is??There is another assignment on it.arggghhhhh......and the final exam is coming soon too....
I guess i wont be doing anything tommorrow. I really need to rest well to proceed further. Perhaps going out with shernee tomorrow, but we are just lazy to go out, too hot, i guess we rather stay at home sleeping and resting all the day.

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is it a lesson?

to turn the globe a few turns away

stroll away the table
leaving the conversation
soon as to start another
the eyes wandering
left and back to physic mode
innerself wonder
who is the on the end
passive or active
or it is the one
which lead to
the greatest thing in world
darent ask
dig it as deep as
the base of the ocean
i leave it there
to be
other day i will know it

again
in this hustle night
i felt unbelonged
felt cheated
even the dumbest jokes
cant bring me back
deep inside
i was torn
into chunks
into pieces
the sugar no longer sweet
the salt no longer salty
the sky no longer bright

the way i miss
is like the sin wave
the way i recover
is like continuous
cosinus wave
the way i forget
is like tangent wave
goin to infinity at certain degree


people is just unpredictable.trust sometimes just need to some to the reality of betrayal. the moment u trust is probably the moment u got betrayal.Something is given up is just because the strengh is not enough.Nothing is impossible if we want it to be. Time, distance and non-unity is not a good excuses....the most important is whether we want it to be or not.......i wish i get the lesson... finely dedicated

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well, it has been a very long time i never visit here.the cny and return to cyber. as usual, cny....eat n eat n eat again. lots of movie to catch up but i am a bit busy of visiting friends house. i got my hair highlighted and so do bzai hair...once in a while to spend a bit in hair..haha. it is so nice to hang around with fren, without bothering the test and assignment in campus. I dont even bring a page of lecture notes home. Anyways, too too car is jus so pack. Oh ya, on the day we back home(fri), we went to petaling street to buy dried meat. Poor ah b have queue for an hour for the dried meat while i just went to other lesss customer shop to buy..hehe....i just cant stand for waiting too long. Then, on the way home, we have our own pre cny celebration in too too car...hehe.....guess what? we ate dried meat n drank soft drink with the cny tunes on the radio.....that is just so..so....feel good. Then back to home, i done lots of stuff, from cleaning and tidy up my room to washing the front gate. and i got a new bedsheets, the pink for me and a yellow one for ah Pot.....ok...to the night before CNY, as usual, dad is terribly bz with the reunion dinner. All these years,he had been cooking for that meal. The dinner was so marvelous, with the big prawn...yummy, n the little abalone too.....anywhere, the is atmosphere was lacked abit because shyan is not home for the first time for cny. I remembered there was a time when dad was not around with ah pot in hospital. That is a bad year where only mum was at home with us during cny. I hope there will be nothing more saddening than that. Even though i was still young that time, i can feel the need of unity in a family. ok....then the 1st day oof cny, as usual, started visiting frens in town....hmm.....ah shan, eeting,shukyuan,..o...i forgot....doesnt matter....asa long as the joy is there.....yeah...i started to gamble this year with a rm1 bet.....i got a pretty good luck tis year, i won a bit i guess.....o..another surprise happen on cny, chunwei bring home his gf...she was quite a cute gal, i guess she was the most soft spoken people i meet before....n she doesnt scare of my doggie.....haha.....b zai so scare of vodka, she sevn ran n stand on my sofa when vodka chase her..hahahhaa........lots of my fren come my house n fall in luv with vodka.....he is jus very very friendly to strangers. Lee even says wan kahwin him to his doggie....one day perhaps...

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