She found the Space

For the first time of being grown-up, she felt so terribly guilty. For not being a useful person. For something she can do it better. For being an unsecure. For being a dissapoint-er. She was blowed with lots of mean question marks. No matter how hard they were, she was still standing, protecting herself, believing she can get through it. She knew she had no wrong, but she also knew she is the cause of it. She was still tough for everything except....He is the only place she will become an infant. Where the vulnerability to break is no distance. The comforts he gives, the securities he offers, all the time. She becomes so tiny, depending emotionally on him, so much. No... infinity is the exact value. In front of him, she struggle to be a grown-up, yet he is the only place that she broke into tears, sheding off her egoness. Because of his words, his comforts and also his sacrifies. Only in him, she found herself, to be the she that can be found in no one. Whenever and wherever, he gives her the long lost space. She.....is now.... understood, useless has in own definitions, regarding to different individual, time and also space of course.