Salzburg

Came across to some conversation(online) on where I want to go if I am not bounded with any circumstances. Very straight away I replied "Hawaii and turkey". Hawaii, ok...a popular place but why turkey? For which I replied "peaceful place ma" Hm..not really peace, maybe it looked peaceful....then maybe Germany, hey..not for World Cup ok....Then at night when I was surfing the net for some exotic wallpaper for my pc. Without any second thought, I typed "Salzburg". Hey....where had hawaii and turkey gone to? Well, that was not an issue. Here are some of the eye-catching scenery that should not be miss.....

Familiar the the one above? No doubt, one of the scenes
of the movie of "The Sound Of Music"

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What a day!

Hm...Hectic day was over. I was having a very high in pressure day since last night. Went for CCIP meeting at 9 pm after dinner in sk. Took me more than an hour there, get my t-shirt and tag, crapped a while with slow before i went off to foe to copy assignment. 3106 this time, I do not even print out the question. Just blindly copied whatever I got. Thanks a lot to hanni for bringing me to the way to free solution. Tq for alexi and lee min for the solution also. That was just the start of hectic day. I got my presentation slides around midnight. There I started to get nervous on how to present it profesionally. I do not want to read it from the paper. That is not enaff pro *giggs* So, I hafal hafal until 3 am. Oh, did I mention I will be having Semiconductor and Superconductor Devices midterm test at night on the next day. This also mean I had done nothing on the subject for the whole hell night. I damm regretted of having 2 hours of sinful naps in the afternoon. I should had spent more time on my revision. *sobsob* Back to the presentation. I was given 9 slides, not too much, quite little though but I just had no enough time to practice. Even before I closed my eyes for sleep, I was still memorising the slides. And I remembered I dreamt some sort about the slides. I must had been over nervous. Public speaking: needless to say, no1 fear of the society. So, I woke up earlier and dressed myself formally. The first time of the year that I am wearing formal. Grey shirt + black slack, I saw some OL side of me....hehe. Nah, there was no fun this morning. I just felt that my heart was pounding so hard and my hand is shaking the whole morning. Then, the time had come. 10am, closer and closer to my public speaking. And very coincidently, chinseng was also presenting the same topic. No wonder he said his presentation is very soon. The night before, remyn and I was actually guessing who was the other group, as we had never come across with the name. So, off he went for his presentation and I was waiting mine impatiently, and nervously. Everytime I felt nervous, my hands become cold, and it shakes some of the time. Then I felt a bit nausea, my appetite started to go crazy, and on some critical time, I felt of throwing out. Then it was my time to speak. There I went "A very good morning to.........bla bla bla", with a shaking and fast like rocket voice. A very bad performance I had done, if I am to judge myself. At least I gained some experiences and one day I will be have no fear anymore on public speaking. So, that was half of the day. Another half is going to be crazy too. I skipped semincond class, went for lunch and then rush back to do my last minutes revision. Panic was the only word to define my feeling on that seond half of the day. Unsolved tutorial, uncomplete text book reading, unknown answer and also un-understand theories. So , I just went through the text book, imagine how I manage to go thru 4 chapter in a afternoon. I saluted myself for that. As expected, the result was I did not even remember any single equation when I saw the question paper. Damn it! lucky I am still manage to do Q2. And 9 pm sharp, end of the challenging plus shitty day. I announced a break for myself until this wednesday to start the notes of fabrication. As a reward for myself, I let myself to have a wholeheartedly steamboat buffet for dinner. *yeah yeah* Finally I come to a short break...Going to sleep more and play more...

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listed

the gentle and calm voice he spoke
the responsibilities he praticed
the similar interest that we owned in common
his popularity among his friends
the way he spiced up his life
the way he tried up new things
the generous smiles that he gave
the eye-contacts that never failed
the concentration he had
the smart and casual way he went
the sporty way he loved to
the politeness he used to be
the sense of humours
the determination towards learning
the similarity that I had never think of
the same opinion towards last min
the time he gave to his family
the wide circle of friends he made
the boyish facial expression he had
the way he sweats after workout


the list goes on.....

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complicated

Why? why? What had happened to me? My mood swings 180 degree in 24 hours. Is it I am tired? i was damn excited this early morning, even though I gotta to got up very very early, for e-charity run. the distance of the run is 5km but I think I only manage to run for 3km. The last 2 km I just walk and run a bit. Ahahahaha..but I still manage to get No 20 of the run. Suddenly felt that I have real great strength and stamina. Nah...just around 70 people joined for the female category. Felt a little bit surprise also, I can never run for long distance since primary. Anyway, I am still glad with what I had achieved this morning, minus the paiseh-ness when hanni screamed my name. That was so embrassing boy! But what I appreciate the most is when mostly of the foe fella scream when I went out for the medal. Ahahaha..at least some people did know me and I am not invisible among those foe....hehe....Happy stuff is not always continuous, bright day will never continues. But why is it bothering so much? Why must I care so much? This is not jealousy, not envy also. Just that I felt that I just a supplement. Iron, Magnesium, Vitamin B or Iodine??? That is worst than that if to compare. It does not really matter me much except the supplement part.

But at the same time I am still awaiting for a little magic that might work in a small percentage. With the slightest motion he sent, I am taking it as a motivation to move more, to step deeper and to wish for more. Might this will end nicely whether in the conclusion that I wanted or in a condition that I already expected, but in a different acceptable way.

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I should not had done this :p

Oh..i had done the darnest thing last midnight. Instead of burning midnight oil for Digital Integrated Circuit, I went for dimsum at 2.30am. Travelled all the way to Sri Petaling from Cyberjaya, which took more than 30minutes, though there was no traffic, that was still crazy. The problems are not about how far it is, how late is it, all I concerned was I will be having test on the next day. Ok ok....if anyone to be blame, that is me, I and myself. It was my own determination that gone wild some of the time *lols* Anyway, it was still a great meal. 3 of us (bzai, jerry n I) was having great supper+ breakfast. I talked a lot to compare to last few days. We ended up to reach Cyberia at 5.30am. It was a long long time ago since the last time we had dimsum for supper, not to include the one we had after Zouk session *giggs* Well, I am still looking forward for the "char siew pao", which i missed last night and of course the famous "lo mai kai pao". Yummy...Thinking of it will make me salivate.

All the best for all PureE for the paper tonight. May esther pass it with flying colours. Esther, Go! Go! Go! %%- %%- %%-

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Biggest assets

Overview:
Your strength and confidence are two of your biggest assets, especially when it comes to how you deal with the challenges about to come your way. You're more than equal to the task, however.


Yes, Esther, Go! Go! Go!

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She found the Space

For the first time of being grown-up, she felt so terribly guilty. For not being a useful person. For something she can do it better. For being an unsecure. For being a dissapoint-er. She was blowed with lots of mean question marks. No matter how hard they were, she was still standing, protecting herself, believing she can get through it. She knew she had no wrong, but she also knew she is the cause of it. She was still tough for everything except....He is the only place she will become an infant. Where the vulnerability to break is no distance. The comforts he gives, the securities he offers, all the time. She becomes so tiny, depending emotionally on him, so much. No... infinity is the exact value. In front of him, she struggle to be a grown-up, yet he is the only place that she broke into tears, sheding off her egoness. Because of his words, his comforts and also his sacrifies. Only in him, she found herself, to be the she that can be found in no one. Whenever and wherever, he gives her the long lost space. She.....is now.... understood, useless has in own definitions, regarding to different individual, time and also space of course.

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reference is still a reference

I should not be putting too much weigh on it. As expected, nothing really special happenned. Maybe I am just too conscious about this day. I should had known so for the past so many years, but I am still placing a glimpse of hope on it. My rationality told me "That is just a reference" but emotionally, I am still a miracle believer. Childish? Yes, parts of me are still a kid. But at least I am not unhappy. Dad and Mum is always supporting me. I still have few peoples that make laugh everydays. When there is hope, there is will and when hopes transform into reality, it is the meaning of life, I guess. Am I wrong? Surprises come when you least expect it. But tell me how many people in reality live without expectation? Thanks god, I am still breathing, at least. Of course I felt a little bit dissapointed because today is no much different than others day. Wake up==> lunch ==> library==> lectures==> dinner ==> online chating ==> supper ==> blogging. Just another Tuesday unless the online chatting session is a special one. Nah, zero excitement. To be positive, I should view the reference on the others perspective!

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Gelatimo Challege!!!

Date: 4th March 2006
Location: Berjaya Times Square, Kuala Lumpur
Time: After lunch, around 2pm
Mission: Ice cream Challenge


Here comes the 4 ice-cream's freaks. Loving ice-cream is eating ice-cream. Planned to have 500ml initially but ended up ordered 750ml ones. Take notes, the ice-cream does not come in cones, cups, or bowls. It was in 750ml full box!!!!!

Very obvious, it comes ugly in 3 flavours :- zamboich(correct me!), chocolate mashimaro and hazelnuts. The look was ugly but the taste is not ugly at all. Let's see the participant "GELATIMO MOMENT". Yeah, this is Italian Gelatimo Ice-cream at Times Square, not a luxury shop, just a small outlet on the mall walkway. Some sort of Baskin Robbins. Here it goes:

Participant No.1 : Miss Esther said "Heavenly"

Participant No 2 : Miss Katherine said "There is no NO for icre-cream!!!"

Participant No.3 : Mr Lykwan said "Ice-cream party??? Count me in!"

Participant No.4 : Mr Jerry said "750ml is never enough for us, come on..lets have another 500ml"







Yeah, I am so much in love with ice-creams. This is also not my first time to have this heavy dose of ice-cream. It was about half year ago, my hometown friend, ah shan and me had our first 500ml together. *scream* We both love ice-cream. And there was once that I ordered Baskin Robbins (quarter pinch i guess), and i finished it alone(I was in Genting that time)! Baskin Robbins' Grean Tea ice cream *thumb up*. And not to forget few years back, we (sheryl, slow and I) finished a box of Wall's Selection ice-cream in Cyberia(whahahaaaaaaahhahaa). Ice-cream party???? Yes, I will go for it!

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Sleepless nights

It had been 4 sleepless nights. Oh....someone please save me. For these 4 nights, I had been flipping around until dawn. I cut- out my afternoon nap, but it made no different. My mind is just so active, as Hanni said. Yes, i admit that I was thinking someone but that is only on the first night. What happened to me? I do not love to sleep anymore? oh..no way! Is it because of the hot weather? I do not know. Even a full day shopping trip failed to give me a good sleep, I woke up at 2am and i flip flip flip for so many hundred times. One day class + salsa make no different to my body. Sleep, everyone need it, but I need it the most! :-( :-(

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count 2...

My mind is getting complicated. Why is it 24? Not 2 or 3? Scratch my head, I am still looking for the reason. There is no solution, but again why is it 24? Is that my eyesight is limiting me from something that I am yet figured out. Or am I afraid counting it again.




P/s: This entry is as complicated as a combination of maths, equations, probabilities, theories and a lot of unknown question marks. Ya, it is Sunday night again :P . Maybe my mind just get tired, when I was not having a good sleep continuously for two nights. May the downpour late the afternoon brings back my good sleep ."Rain rain, come again and flushed the humid air away"

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I am loving it~

Thrice a day is just too much. Even though it is not so good emotionally, I know I am starting to love it. One day, I will know whether I am correct. At least I will know there are some force, trying to hint me, telling me, you are not stepping on the same spot.

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Gila....

forever_1st_day: seriously i wan tell u..

lnyie84: show u how to lam XXX

forever_1st_day: since long time ago liao
forever_1st_day: but i dare not..
lnyie84: u seroisly love me???

forever_1st_day: please..
forever_1st_day: be patient and

lnyie84: okok

forever_1st_day: listen to what will me utter

lnyie84: u tell
lnyie84: i go bath

forever_1st_day: softly to ur ears..

lnyie84:

forever_1st_day: really..

lnyie84: okok

forever_1st_day: i want to say this everytime i see u
forever_1st_day: everytime i just keep in in my heart

lnyie84: ok la i go bath now

forever_1st_day: and i feel bad everytime i close my eyes at night
forever_1st_day: that..
forever_1st_day: really..
forever_1st_day: i
forever_1st_day: i am not lesbian
forever_1st_day: so..ur love thing ar..
forever_1st_day: plz ar..

lnyie84:

forever_1st_day: dun show me here
lnyie84:

forever_1st_day:

lnyie84:
lnyie84:
lnyie84:
lnyie84:
lnyie84: why..
lnyie84: why must u tell me know
lnyie84: do u not know that i love you so
lnyie84: don go break my heart just like that
lnyie84: i would not love in this world without you
lnyie84: dont you know

forever_1st_day: baby..listen to me...

lnyie84: there will be another sleepless night

forever_1st_day: love is everywhere u can get in this world
forever_1st_day: please go out..
forever_1st_day: and seek yours..

lnyie84: no

forever_1st_day: do not stay just for me...

lnyie84: i refuse to !
lnyie84: i had found my love in you

forever_1st_day: i doesnot wortd it

lnyie84: you do, trust me you do

forever_1st_day: go explore and find the greatest love

lnyie84: do u not wanna try out with me?

forever_1st_day: no..that is not love.....

lnyie84: i do not need a great love to stand in my life
lnyie84: all i want is you

forever_1st_day: please...

lnyie84: a return of love is just what i need

forever_1st_day: leave me with a little smile

lnyie84: so please
lnyie84: stay iwht me...

forever_1st_day: and go mmet the new one
forever_1st_day: together he will bring you happiness
forever_1st_day: warmth

lnyie84: how dare you say that

forever_1st_day: that i will never can give to you

lnyie84: even i save all my love for oyu?
lnyie84: there is no one else out there who acts like you
lnyie84: smile and charm like you..
lnyie84: no.. there will never be
lnyie84: stay with me plese

forever_1st_day: you will never know
forever_1st_day: at least u go and try
forever_1st_day: i will stay here and
forever_1st_day: be beside of your
forever_1st_day: come back if you meet the dead end

lnyie84: stay here n eat ur roti canai la

forever_1st_day: and you will start all over again from me

lnyie84: i knew it when i 1st saw you
lnyie84: i end all the path i needed to you
lnyie84: because the reason is i found you

forever_1st_day: if you leave, you will know that i am no longer the perfect one for u
forever_1st_day: go and find yours
forever_1st_day: and you will be blessed by my prayer

lnyie84: love is blind, really it was
lnyie84: ive tried and i know
lnyie84: he is not worth for me

forever_1st_day: and only god will know that you love me deep in your heart

lnyie84: all i want is you
lnyie84: why 2 person deeply in love cant be together?
lnyie84: tell me why...
lnyie84: i go bath lor

forever_1st_day: u say i win 1st...

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the third coincidently or the 1st sign of......

one...two and three encounters. Got to say moving in a good beat. Two important number in the month of March. Hm..the first one is quite a surprise.....the second one is on 14th, guess that i will be forgeting this date in few more days. How surprising it would be, I wonder.... Somebody just remind me when it is 15 of march k...

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