the lonely desk
u are unoccupied again
u are not belong to anyone
u will never let it to be happen
sometimes history is not enough
for leading you
towards the rising and setling of the sun
everything
can be change
in the other second
u doubt yourself
what is there still
sometimes
nothing is much better
if the naive human
owns nothing
totally nothing
nothing to compare
nothing to be proud of
nothing to be more than
even the more than word
never exist
life will be simpler
no worries
no violents
no tantrums
be wise
plan the coming
do not be too glad
even something really joyful happen
and the old should not be forgotten
and maintain the identity
to be who you are
believing
good will hunting
the time will never
running too fast
even though
one minute is still sixty second
doesnt mean
we are in rush to hunt
something doesnt really
belong to us
that something jus exist
to lead us
to motivate us
but not to fulfill us
because human is never satisfied with what they already have
Friday, January 28, 2005
that something
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it is 2.47am in the morning,i am still awake.I should not be here,instead i should be lyiong on my bed,resting peacefully and to be ready for tomorrow early class.I must make sure i able to attend my next day class.The atmospere is terribly smoky.I wonder where do all tis smoke come from?my eyes is uncomfortable and i cant breath smoothly ad i felt that my head is a bit pain.Perhaps not enough oxygen.I am considering to go home tomorrow if the situation gettting bad.I can also felt that my lip is dry and i felt thirsty all the time. And i start to *cough cough*
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Monday, January 24, 2005
it is just another sunday night
another day of the year that i felt like going home
perhaps bcoz i am not in a good mood
and dont even felt like chatting
tis noon
sorry ya, my fren, mayb i have upset u tis noon
i just like that
sometimes..even nothing will make me down
the whole day talkin less than 50 words
must be something wrong with me
wish that i will be fine tomolo
when i opened my eyes
and i am again the happy gal again
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it is 11.52am in the morning.b zai pc,having a pack of cereal on my right side.i had just woke up. i sleep so early last night. i was really tired.The whole day at the bkt jalil looking at ppl swimming and taking the time....make some new frens, yee ling, jo,yee ling fren...arr..i forgot the name.i saw someone familiar in the carnival..ya..her name is jieying.but she cant recognize me of course. she was a very great swimmer yesterday.oh ya....tat day went to 1utama,also got some new fren,liang yeow's fren.wow, guys really can shop.i think my collection for cny is still not enaff....i need a red shirt and a pair of jeans at least.
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
HE closed it~~
i am feeling really down right now. I will never goin to believe that when one door is close,another will be open.why?why is it everytime the other door close when i had jus make a small step?i had really make that step, i really didnt stare on it for long.Why is it happened repeatedly?why is him fooling at me?everything that happens really make me felt that when i believe another door is opened and he close it when i step towards it.There is nothing there to make me believe that another one is opened for me when i saw the close one.
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Friday, January 21, 2005
wow...last night was marvellous....stayed up until 7.00am..movie,pool n supper.....i slept exactly after the sun rises. and i am awake when it is only 12pm..later maybe will be goin out and maybe not.the movie is not really good,perhaps too slow....but still consider ok...i am now stil waiting chance to catch the national treasure. een test is coming soon..but i am still slackin here....too bad...i just not in mood for study.i have a 6th sense that i cant finish reading it...
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
it is now 9.09pm and i still sitting in front jolyn monitor...doing lots of shit...y shit? coz i goin to have maths test 2molo n i am not yet well prepare for it, but i am still wasting my time here...someday i going to regret of what i did today. too bad. Jus now, went alamanda with ah too, see,nee n b. Go buy some fruits and vege....these day, really felt hard to survive without fruits, afterall eating fruit is good for health. maybe i inherited this fruit eating habitfrom my dad and also mum. i was never need worried bout fruits n vege while i am at home. Jus open the fridge n i wil get what i want.Sometimes my dad will even serve it to us...damn nice man....i so luv my dad....i so miss my dad food...hmm..i am still waiting for shyan's call. how come she reached home so early.....arghh....tomorrow will be a very tense.....control lab in the morning, classes and the most important is...the maths test at nght....OMG........
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so the time is 9.05 in the morning. location multimedia computing lab.computer no36.Well, now is still early of the day of battle.The lab instructor is still not well prepared,so i steal tis opportunity to write a bit in tis bloggie....the morning rush is over.....washout n breakfast....n i am now ready to face the day.lab sheet without procedure
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
What is that actually? an imagination? an expected dream? surprise?i dont know..my instinct told me not to believe that.Perhaps it is still dawn. I am not sure. Everything is still very unclear.I am not ready for the invitation.I should have backup something before all this have to happen. What i can feel that the power is not switched on yet. I am still far away. But why am i so confusing. Deep down inside, my nerve tell me to accept what is happening and go on it. On the other side, my rationality tell me to wait, wait and wait until the long needle of the clock is clicking on the right number. If i accept it to be happen, i am with the conflict with the previouse me. The trust is not there anymore and i might become a breaker. I will never want to be a breaker,but.....anyway, i will know the reality soon. Maybe it is still to early of the day
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Maths test is coming next wed...how come i need to take test while now is jus the first month of the trimester...usually the maths first test wil be not so hard if to compare to to the 2nd test. how i wish there is no test througout the whole trimester..how i wish also there is 2 months of study weeks for final exam....oh well, that will never happen. After Maths test, the other week there is een test and then followed by control test....sighzz...there will be at least 3 weeks to be in tense, and not to forget the lab. Means that there willl be less and less relaxing time. Anyway, next week i will be shopping with Shyan for new year stuff *yeah* cant wait for tat day. It was a long time ago we both go for shopping in KL. This time i am going to bring her to secret recipies and KimGary restaurant.
Suddenly i felt the urge of going home. I always felt so when i am alone during weekend in Cyber. Funny, i was not like tis usually. I always lazy to back home previously.Sometimes i rather stay in Cyber alone.Maybe i am a weird one, sometimes i just enjoy to be alone, to do whatever i wanted to and to sleep silently. Can i call this as how i enjoy the life. Afterall,i am just lazy. Haha. I miss so much the time to watch tv at home. Any television program will do. I really want to catch The Apparentice, America Next Top Model and another one...what tat? i forgot the name....but it is all about surgery makeover or stuff like that.
Well, i think i will be goin to stay at the library until 5.30pm and then i will go jogging in the campus. After that i will take my bath and had my dinner and relax at the night.
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Friday, January 14, 2005
here comes the 2nd one. i am wondering why people never satisfied with what they have. we are always seeking for a new one.wondering why we never always be satisfied the one tat is already is with us? life is like tat perhaps, when the new arrive,the old one wil be forgone. sometimes i felt that it is not always good for seeking a new thing. i felt that seeking new one will make us, the tiny creature in the world to lost our own identity. but what is the meaning of life if we are always on the same point? confusing...wondering how many people wil satisfied with what is belong to them...i admit sometimes i am careless..something had jus been forgone everytime i seek for a new stuff.
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jus an intro
so..it is now 3.57pm in the noon. The atmosphere is quite hot....the sun rays on my balcony..and tis is my first ever time to have my own blog. Life is just another stage, the name of tis page....i am still not sure to public tis blog yet....perhaps i wil keep tis private. Everything is still unsure
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