how real is it?

what is all this. Does these implies what am i worrying recently. Is it the negative side of my mind that i always doesnt want to face? Is it a reflection on what is happening at me from the other perspective that i view on my real life. I dont know. Theory said it might be so. But pratically i hope that i had just been thinking too much. Life is just like a stage, we are planning and predicting, but none of us can predict it hundred percent accurately. Why was it i am always in rush. Of getting train, geting home, even on a bicycle. I always felt i am still far from the destination. A very very far journey and i am always run out of time. Sometimes, i felt funny on this but most of the time i keep telling myself not to worry as that is not true. does other felt the same thing? and there is once i never doubt why is him there. Rationally, this cannot be. Am i sure i want to hold his hand? and the song....how come this happen in such a sequence. I dont know but i bliv.....there is something related, maybe this is not a suitable time for me to figured out. Perhaps i will know it one day or shall it fade with the sand on the glass hour?