is it a lesson?

to turn the globe a few turns away

stroll away the table
leaving the conversation
soon as to start another
the eyes wandering
left and back to physic mode
innerself wonder
who is the on the end
passive or active
or it is the one
which lead to
the greatest thing in world
darent ask
dig it as deep as
the base of the ocean
i leave it there
to be
other day i will know it

again
in this hustle night
i felt unbelonged
felt cheated
even the dumbest jokes
cant bring me back
deep inside
i was torn
into chunks
into pieces
the sugar no longer sweet
the salt no longer salty
the sky no longer bright

the way i miss
is like the sin wave
the way i recover
is like continuous
cosinus wave
the way i forget
is like tangent wave
goin to infinity at certain degree


people is just unpredictable.trust sometimes just need to some to the reality of betrayal. the moment u trust is probably the moment u got betrayal.Something is given up is just because the strengh is not enough.Nothing is impossible if we want it to be. Time, distance and non-unity is not a good excuses....the most important is whether we want it to be or not.......i wish i get the lesson... finely dedicated