After 3 days of boredom, I realised staying alone is not that good. Without accompanies, time passes too slow, 60 seconds in one minute seemed to become much longer. Yeah, I admit I do love some own space at certain time. But being alone all the time makes me become too emotional. Without accompany, my mood swings in a manner that i myself are afraid of. I might be very happy at this moment and at the next moment I might be down and depress. My mind started to wonder every possibility and also impossibility. The angelic and evil me take turn to influence me. Where had I dropped my confidence? Please come back to me, again.... Just once and i will never let go again.....okok....end of my rintihan....jus back from The Mines, planned for the movie Tokyo Drift but ended up spending more than 3 hours singing karaoke in the green little box. This little green k-box is much more better than genting ones, obviously bigger, cleaner and the most important more new songs. And importantly, we four managed to occupy the room comfortably *thumb up* Where else we can get 3 hours karaoke service at midnight for the rate as low as RM10 each person? Red Box sunway pyramid itself charged us more than rm40 each for midnight session. Satisfactory except there was no Janice songs.
Continue Reading...Thursday, June 22, 2006
Monday, June 19, 2006
genting again~
First day of Epsilon, also the final year in MMU. Day started with a bowl of cereal with milo bla bla bla....It is also the first time ever to shop around in FOE building, this time for the hunting of fyp tittle. Made up my mind finally, I will be playing safe, so off I go with experimental based tittle. Trimester break are fully utilised, with 12day11night trip to Genting. Yeah, I am doing part time again. This time outside Arena of Star, promoting the best and most affordable sweater in Genting Highlands. I was having a real great time over there, with sis and her other 4 friends(lun, xiang, fatt and xingyung) except for the long walking distance from Ria Apartment to the outdoor theme park. You are right....outdoor theme park.....we have the pass to go in and out all the time. So, it is not surprising the Spinner rides had become our routine EVERYDAY after working hours *lols*. We were lucky enough also to misuse the entry pass to attend FM98.8's anniversary on the VIP area. Not forgetting the friendship we had built there, the special way we celebrated xingyung birthday and also the korean series "biscuit teacher and star candy". All this are really out of expectation. Never in my dream I will work in Genting again, oo....with my sis! Apart of that, I missed to meet up with one of my friend before he left for United Kingdom. Really sorry, it was my fault. Wishing him all the best in studies and health. Oh ya, dad was admitted to hospital because of denggue. Luckily he is alright now. Pity him, he lost few kg in a week time. Dad, i love you and I cannot bear to live without you! You must take good care of yourself and enjoy watching football and cook nice food for us o!
Continue Reading...Saturday, May 27, 2006
so long delta! wiederaufsehen
Yeah!!!! Final examination is over, and the long waited holidays are coming. It is the end of my 3rd year of degree too. Some of my IT friends are graduating too. Have not really planned what to do during the holiday, but for sure I will rest rest and rest a lot. Hehe...What worth to be mentioned for this trimester. *sctrach my head* Yaya, trimester started on the end of CNY, the valentine single party, salsa class, involvement in CCIP, attended dean talks, numerous of karaoke session, e-charity run, 1-Utama lepaking, only 1 time of clubbing session(good improvement), constant library visiting*lolz*, countless of semicond yawns, lots of McD session, a stupid visible swell on my gum*hate it*, some makeup purchasing, campus walking session, of course quality time with frens;best,close,old,not close, new or watever and etc etc (any leftout?) Bye bye delta year!
Continue Reading...Monday, May 22, 2006
lalat
11.50am, Terminal, lunch time(maybe brunch)
Me: Yer, so many lalat de o
Katt: Yelo
Me: Hate le, dunno where al those lalat come from...
Katt: Raining ma....Flies dunno to hold umbrella arr.....so ma come in for shelter lo...
Me: hahahahahahaahaha....
Katt: Laugh wat o, really de ma (selambanya)
Lame joke. But yes, I laugh at it
Saturday, May 20, 2006
dream..I dreamt
I dreamt of him, can I say again? Ahaha.. I am not sure whether I dreamt about him previously. But the funny part is that I have not been seeing this person or talking to him for the past 5 years. Wow, how time flies! Wondering how he is doing now....sort of miss him....Maybe this is why I love to sleep a lot. Because some of the time I will get to dream something that are really interesting, which are also non-sense all the time. Good and funny dreams make me smile when I wake up in the morning!
Continue Reading...Thursday, May 18, 2006
update exam week
So, I am in the middle of exam weeks. 3 more papers to go on before the long-waited holidays.......I want to go home le.....It was shyan birthday yesterday. It was too bad of me of not even remembering the date. Until she sms-ed me....looked like i had lost count the day and date...I only remember how many days left is the next paper. Another week plus to go. Yeah, I am counting terribly for the day to go home! Esther Go! Go! Go!
Continue Reading...Friday, May 12, 2006
forecast(unapplied-able)
Oh...this is so true for today. But what is the meaning of forecasts when it comes true only after the day is off. Why is it like this everytime? It only comes true when I missed to have a look on the day before. Is that means that I do not need to refer it, since it only come true when my day ends??? Then for what purpose forecasts is for??
the five letters
sorry..seems to the hardest word. How do you judged on a belated sorry? Does it cure? No, it only make people realize that you had done a mistake. It is also plainly another way to say "Yeah, I had betrayed you". Perhaps...this is why the word sorry is created at the first place. You know you does not need my forgiveness because I will not blame on you either. The five letters words just arrived as a password to the access of the old hard disk, does not affecting much, except for some retrival of space.
Continue Reading...Wednesday, May 10, 2006
creative poet
COPIED n PASTED
Excellent poems found on toilet doors & walls
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>"THE "FUTURE" OF MALAYSIA IS IN YOUR HAND , HOLD IT GENTLY"
>Excellent poems by not so famous poets... found on toilet doors and
>walls..........
>A budding poet trying his best...
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>Here I lie in stinky vapor,
>Because some bastard stole the toilet paper,?Shall I lie, or shall I
>linger,?Or shall I be forced to use my finger.
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>Before he graduated to be a poet, he wrote this...
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>Here I sit
>Broken hearted
>Tried to shit
>But only farted
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>Someone who had a different experience wrote,
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>You're lucky
>You had your chance
>I tried to fart,
>And shit my pants!
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>Perhaps it's true that people find inspiration in?toilets.
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>I came here
>To shit and stink,
>But all I do
>Is sit and think.
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>There are also people who come in for a different?purpose...
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>Some come here to sit and think,
>Some come here to shit and stink,
>But I come
>here to scratch my balls,
>And read the bullshit on the walls...
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>Toilets walls also double as job advertisement?space.......
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>(written high upon the wall)
>If you can piss above this line, the Singapore Fire?Department wants
>you.
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>Ministry of Environment advertisement.
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>We aim to please!
>You aim too! Please
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>On the inside of a toilet door:
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>Patrons are requested to remain seated throughout the?entire
>performance.
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>And finally, this should teach some a lesson...
>?Sign seen at a restaurant:
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>The hands that clean these toilets also make your?food...please aim
>properly.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
The music box
I still remember
that day
you asked me to stay
you said you have something
to tell me
so for the first time
we met on the stair
what a silent corridor
but I worry no much
because I had promised to meet you
I told none of my friend
No one was asking me too
Yes, I had a crush on you
you are so gentle
forgotten how many times
you appear in my diary
and how many times
you appear on my mind
so, on the corridor
you said my birthday is coming
you handed me a wrapped box
also a card in yellow envelope
time flies,
back then was so many years ago
i still have the music box
on the lowest drawer
and of course the lovely card
for which i look at it once
or maybe twice in a year
when the spring is near
Perhaps i was too young back then
I had never really tried
my best to care about you
to care about myself
Wondering what are the consequences
if I admit it was me?
if I appears that noon?
and if I appears another noon?
Memories is still memories
At least,
your greetings and blessings
will be always warming
may you having great life
throughout the years..
How easily a little girl fall in love. Life and relationship are so much easier when we were younger. Time passes, memories are always the sweetest.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Tell me
Another a few days to call April a month. Final examination is coming. I have not more than 20 days to do the preparation. Thinking of it give me a cold shiver. How am I not afraid? I have 3 assignment to due soon, around 6 chapters for each subject, for 5 subject, so much and so much of unsolved calculation and more than ever does-not-make-sense notes to memorize. Seriously, the coming month is going to be a real hectic one. Tell me how to gain more concentration(not the electron or hole concentration), I mean the real peaceful and undisturbed mind. Tell me where to buy determination. Again, tell me where can I get confidence. Arrghhh.....Help me, to eliminate the laziness, and unconsciousness. And also to strain away STRESS from my mind...please
Continue Reading...Tuesday, April 25, 2006
it begins with
On one fine day
Kero: 那我们现在是什么？
Colin: 你要什么就什么咯。。。。
Kero: Then, boyfriends 好吗？
Qouted
This is how relationship begins.....sweet and simple!!! 爱很简单!!!
icq
Before I forgot ....
my ICQ number is 159090746
takes me some time to recall it....anyone still using icq..add me k.....lets back to Form 4
Monday, April 24, 2006
It's raining
Raining day...Have you ever wondered what people do when it rains? Some people run as fast as they could to their destination. Some jus get off from their chair, walk to the window and close the window. Much more boil some water and have some exotic coffee. And of course there are also some who never move when it rains; sitting on the playground, letting the downpour washes away all the pain, to have a clearer mind. They looked down on their lap, ignoring whether it is tears or rain running on their cheeks. This is the only little personal space that they wanted to, to put away their ego, to behave what their heart had told them, for which it is the turn silence raining night, the tears obey what heart said. Is that what you had done on the lst raining night. Please tell me you are alright....always....
Continue Reading...Sunday, April 23, 2006
weekend outing
This is how a dull Saturday turned up to be a comfortable one. Outing with the precious one has never fail to make the day better. Will never forget how we shared the soup for our express dinner and of course the way we are connected by those silly materialistic talk. Haha....you gotta make yourself to rebel k...You will be the precious one...always...Oh ya....a must to remember...remember that there was once we were touched by the tiger that appears in the snow.....
Continue Reading...Saturday, April 22, 2006
Found
My calculator is back! Thanks to leng lui katt(she requested me to acknowledge) for bringing it back. If you are asking why am I so over-happy about this, you are normal! I can straight away get a new one right? It is just merely Rm50 for a brand new one afterall. Yeah, it is not the Rm50 problem. Ask any one of the undergraduate of the Faculty of Engineering of Multimedia University what will them do if they lost their fx-570. What will them do? Or shall I ask what can they do? The answer is that they can do nothing!!!!! Really, just nothing except to get a second hand one, which is very very hard to be found. Losing my fx-570 had been a miserable time for me. On the First day, I dig the whole brain memory whether I left it in the library, in the class or maybe foodcourt. I tried to recall when was the last time I am still using it. Then, I started to asked people around me, did you saw my calculator, did you take my calculator, did you know my calculator......I started to worried how am I going to do the calculation during test and final examination. Luckily my roomate is kind enough, she offered hers. But that does not solve the problem either. I even asked my sis to search for that old model from her friends, who knows I am lucky enough to exchange with them. But nothing come to be a good solution. I tidy up my not really untidy room to which I found nothing but dissapointment. I am enough and I planned to get a new one, Canon brand by this weekend. Then suddenly on one peace Friday noon, Katt come to my room and made me to say thank you to her. I did it, I thought she found my Clubhouse membership card, then to my real surprise, she showed me my beloved calculator. What a bad day turned up to be a great day!.
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About 40 hours later
While I was seeking for Mopiko to heal my mosquito bites, I saw one familiar object. A very very familiar flat object. Oh.....My Clubhouse Membership card is back!!!!!!! The security guard at the club knows how i miss it! How come it hide from me, leaning on the sidewall of my drawer or should I say sitting on the narrow slit of the drawer. Whatever is it, I saved up my RM30 for the replacement. I can resume my workout session starting from tomorrow. It is back now..I will treasure it more than ever. One will never start to treasure until she lost it. I understand now...clearly
Now I know what brings to a real surprise. It is something that happened unexpectedly, really unexpected......
Thursday, April 20, 2006
topicless
No specific topic to blog again. When only my blog will be an interesting one? I stayed 24 hours a day and 7 days a week in Cyberjaya, the so-called intelligent city. Oh ya, the off day back to my hometown is not counted. Ignore also the few dull outings for yamcha, movie and shopping. Can I say my university life is quite boring. This semester is actually better than the previous one. At least, I joined dance class; not learning much but I am having fun. At least, I am a sub-commitee in CCIP music division. I more of the time to stay in library borak-ing of course, special thanks to the pack schedule. I figured out that on one of the side of the library is pack of the peoples of the same batch as mine. We, the FOE representatives always conquer the right hand side of the library. Is that a motivation? Or a good place to social around? See how I use the word social to replace the word pat. Lectures? I have to start the day with morning class for three consecutive days. I hate it. But I treat it as a way to the good habit. Else, I will be waking up after 10 am. Guess that life is getting healthier on the coming Novenber. Did I mention before that I will be starting my Industrial Training Programme on 30 October 2006? Hell ya, I am exposing myself to the real working environtment as a trainee status on the first day of my 22 years old. How sad it is. I am stepping forward to the reality world, getting away from mum n dad's shelter. I am going to miss my life as a student. Miss the way I skip the lecture just for an afternoon nap and also to skip the alarm clock and turn up to lecture 15 minutes late. Allright, back to the point...I have no pint actually. So this end my presentation...blurppppp....blog-atation today......ahhahaa.....
p/s: I miss him no more, Am i going to hate him? I wish No! He does not worth it. Loving and hating are the same, they require lots of courage and also...energy. a rainbow after rain is what we always wanted to or some of the time we just wish that the rain will never stop. Or perhaps we should not wish for rain? What a contrast.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
lost items
Lost items:
Casio fx570 scientific calculator RM45
Mentos mint candy RM0.80
Club House membercard Rm30
own-self Priceless!
Thursday, April 13, 2006
byebye midterm test
I figured out that i love to blog after test or exam. Yeah, finally this the end of midterm test for Tri3 of Delta, 2006. I am already in delta year which means I am already 4 years in MMU. How time flies....The scene when I come to MMU to buy the application form is still fresh in my mind. The great time during Alpha year was like yesterday. So, my Communication 2 paper went goreng. No one to be blamed other than my lack on time management. Whatever is it, it is already over. So much more are coming. The next few days is what I waited since few weeks ago. Nothing too special, not any anniversary or whose birthday. It is just my own declared midterm break since MMU do not give me one for this trimester. I am going sleep and rest a lot. Got to finish the drama series "ah wong shen juen" also. Yeah, I know I am terribly outdated in catching hk series. 4 days, without a single page of notes or tutorial. Planned for some gym session as well. It is time to catch my long lost workout too. Not to forget, applying some nutrient on my goin-to-dry face. Any other things to add on to my list??
=======esther in midterm break mode========
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Forecast
".........Romantically, there is no doubt that you've got Cupid and his fleet of angels on your side in April. This has to be good news, for the March 14 eclipse may have been troubling for you socially. Now, with Venus in your house of true love for the first time in a year and sending kisses to Jupiter in Scorpio, you'll be quite a people magnet. If single, you will likely find that at least one new romantic partner is eager to spend time with you........"
Hmm.....true love? A he or a she or a them? spend time? Jogging, cycling, swimming, skating, Waltz-ing,salsa-ing or maybe zoo visiting? *lols* Let's wait and see.....*patiently*
p/s: Waltz.....How I wish I can slide as they did....Nothing is more important than the understanding between each other while taking a step forward, without doubting the trust you gave earlier. Shall we dance....Waltz??????
