I went home again last friday, after work. A little rushy but I like the feeling of of fullness of my day. Sometimes I felt that staying idle makes me have too much of time to give myself chance to study about myself and which normally I will ends up not feeling good of being me. Aiks, why am I so complicated?? But anyhow, most of the time I will choose to sit idle, simple just because I am lazy, terribly lazy. I can stayed in lying position for long and rolled my body to get my drink which was a few steps away. I had forgotten how many times my sis scolded on this :-( So now you know why my tummy is that big, don't you? Lazy, fatty and clumsy, i had all these trait, omg someone just killed me, I hate this type of personality but I am having one, so contradict wth.
O, speaking about clumsy, can you believe that I actually throw away my bus ticket to go back to mentakab *self knocks on the head* Yeah, really. I am officially a clumsy person now, careless is no longer fit me anymore. Again, numerous mumbling sessions by my dad, mum andd also sis. You see la, I am the eldest yet I am mumbled by my younger sis. How dare are them!!? Even my youngest brother will always imitating me finding my stuff eg. hp, wallet, watch -_-" And I was guilty for leaving the holy whole set of my under garments at home while I was working part time in Genting. Imagine, how am I going to survive in Genting, with only one set of under garment. omg. No need wash mehh??? Luckily , some angels showered me with my intimate items a week after . Now you can judge how clumsy am I xD xD
I do not want to admit I am a careless person. In fact, I am very careful person when it comes to most issues. I think a lot, really a lot when the issue did matter me. I am always predicted my worst case in everything I did, just because I refrain myself from being positive because being positive sucks big time! At least being negative, I can predict what is the bad impact going to occur and everything that happens less than that will be a blessing. Don't you think so?? People said thinking positively will make you happier, but I strongly believe thinking negatively will make me relief and makes me even happier. So, if I come out with bad thought on your idea, do not say I am cruel, it is the reality that takes its toll.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Clumsy and Negative thinking
Thursday, March 06, 2008
you have no life
I really do not understand why some people cannot stand on their own feet. Is it that hard? or simply because they do not want to. Why must them tied themselve down to such limit? Cant them just release themselve and make a life out. How much of the time you are not committed..to the family, works, partner, responsibility and also friends.There are no much carefree time in one life, i am refering to normal life(born,educated,work,married and retire) that we can really enjoy. I am not saying to abondon all commitment and u fly for freedom, not that. What I am trying to emphasize is that, no matter how much you are commited, we just need to some time, maybe once a month to do what i like, eg. meeting up buddies. Is that they felt being tied down is a happiness or they choose to believe that is happiness? What ever is it on others mind, I remains with my strong principle(stubborn me).Other than my loved ones, i still have a lot of things to do, by myself on my own as an independent individual.I haTe dependent people, if you can do it previously and you give me thousands bullshit reason...shame on you!Nevertheless, when there is a will there is a way. And if you have no will i am better getting far away from you.Girlss, get a life or you will regret when you getting older.
Continue Reading...Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Quick quote
"Before You Achieve, You Must Believe"
is close to the phrase "if you think you can, you can". If I am to believe plainly, will I achieve it too?? I am a believer, only if i know I will be putting effort on it. Very true indeed, from previous experiences, I observed that if I ain't believing I am out of achiving. I knew it more than anyone else. The same applies when I did not want to achive, I just never take initiative to start believing, there come the term PROCRASTINATION.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
E-S-T-H-E-R
Out of curiosity, i googled the meaning name ESTHER and i got this
"The girl's name Esther is pronounced ESS-ter. It is of Persian origin, and its meaning is myrtle leaf".
By the way, the picture bellow is myrtle flower, and I am the leaf and so coincidently all the entry i posted here were signed with the name gReEnLeAf ;P
