HE closed it~~

i am feeling really down right now. I will never goin to believe that when one door is close,another will be open.why?why is it everytime the other door close when i had jus make a small step?i had really make that step, i really didnt stare on it for long.Why is it happened repeatedly?why is him fooling at me?everything that happens really make me felt that when i believe another door is opened and he close it when i step towards it.There is nothing there to make me believe that another one is opened for me when i saw the close one.