This Point

At this very moment of life, I felt I am a observant tower. I saw the low and high tides, I saw then sunrise and sunsent, the moon and stars sets on and unsets. Friends making a big leaps all the time, while I am still here, still observing, evaluating and maybe worrying the future that awaits me. Last year this time, I am sure I am not having this feeling, so do many many many years ago. If this is an overdue quarter life crisis, I guess it is easier to be deal with. It is not about a downfall nor a high rise,it is just this weird unexplainable feeling. Not a complain though, at this moment of life I just felt things is getting too fast beyond my speed of living. Or should i reiterate that I somehow felt my agenda is not interesting enough. Or that my imaginations are not wild enough. Things are getting too confusing right now, that i am in the line between happy and unhappy.

But for sure, I felt contented observing lives now.